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14. What If

A/N: All flashbacks are in Italics

Liam

"What if I would of let you leave that night?" Liam thought out loud forgetting you were laying next to him in bed. He didn't even have to say the night. At the time, Liam wasn't be understanding or respectful of your decisions in life. The decisions that you were making were lessening the time you both had together on top of his already busy schedule.

You walked into your house around 11:00 from your study group that was after your class. You were exhausted, but you were happy to finally see Liam.

"Liam, I'm home!" you yelled across the house putting your purse down. No response. "Liam?" You said walking into the living room. He had his eyes glued to the TV. He didn't even look like he was going to acknowledge your arrival. "Liam, babe?" You said shaking his shoulders. He just shook his shoulders trying to get your hands off of him. "What's wrong?" you asked.

"Nothing, just my girlfriend is being hypocritical," he mumbled under his breath, his glared still on the tv.

"Excuse me?" you said, walking over to the other side of the couch. "How am I being a hypocrite?" you asked.

"You always say 'Liam I wish we could spend more time together.', but here you are, spending all your time at school with extra classes," Liam complained standing up.

"Liam, I need to take up the extra classes to get my degree," you explained. "I've only been there more often because you complain about me being here and not talking to you," you shot back.

"All I'm asking is for you to spend some actual time with your boyfriend," Liam yelled, stepping closer to you.

"Why are you being a selfish dick? I have a life, too, Liam!" You yelled back. "I can't always the girl that's there for you when you need her!"

"Maybe I should find a girl like that because I don't see this working out." Liam spat, making you speechless.

He didn't just break up with you, did he? No, you and Liam fought, but neither of you had ever said anything like that. But does he mean it now?

"Fine! Go and find a trophy girlfriend that's kisses your ass!" you yelled with tears in your eyes. You didn't even try to listen to what he had to say. You ran outside with tears staining your face.

"Y/N, wait," you heard Liam yell behind you, but you didn't listen. "Y/N just listen!" He said grabbing your shoulder.

"Liam, leave me alone," You said through gritted teeth.

"I didn't mean what I said, and you know that," Liam said.

You didn't even bothering turning around before respond, "But you thought it enough to say it, Liam, and I need someone that will be understanding of my life as I am of theirs," you sniffled.

He turned you by your shoulders so he could finally look at you, "I'm trying Y/N and it's hard," he said wiping one of your tears away.

"Liam, you're gone for 6 months at a time and it's hard, but I mange."

"I know, babe," Liam said hugging you. "I know. Let's just go inside and talk about this tomorrow. You didn't deserve this when you came home."

"I honestly don't know," you sighed putting your head on his chest. "I can't really imagine my life without you in it."

You felt he's chest vibrate against your cheek as he chuckled, "You don't understand how much I love you." He said, kissing your forehead.

"I love you, too."