Magician's Desire (Hisoka X Reader) [NOT FLUFF]

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I don't know who is going to read this or if anyone will. This story is over 5 years old now, just about. I wrote it when I was 14. I am about to turn 20 next week. I've reread this story many times. The comments, too. I've apologized before, but my heart is burning to apologize again. I just gave it another reread today for shits and giggles. I didn't find it funny. I feel horrible. What an awful display of my writing and my character. I think about this story to this day, guilt and regret eating me. Even if it's just a fictional story, I can't help it. I feel so sorry for what I've written. The sexual assault scene, that I have now removed, was disgusting and heartbreaking. I did write it with mostly the intention of it being upsetting, but I took it way too far. I can't imagine the amount of potential SA victims that have read this story and were hurt by it. I almost don't want to. I feel so guilty. I am sorry.