SMITTEN || J.JK (Ongoing)

26| All the time

'Y/n's P.O.V.'

I blink my eyes continuously in a desperate attempt to control the anxiety rushing through my body. There's a heavy weight limping on my chest and I'm starting to feel an immense headache from the tears I've shed in the past hour. I bite my lips, dragging my fingers across the wet stream on my cheeks, taking in the sight of the man standing in his room at a distance from me. Perhaps the only way I can feel better is if I garner enough courage to walk towards him and clasp him in a hug, perhaps the only way to escape the pain in this quiet room would be leaving it. I have no idea what to say so jungkook stands in silence on the other end of the phone for a few seconds gawking at me before he finally speaks.

"What did she say to you?",his voice is almost a whisper now, gentle yet desperate. I'm not sure where to begin when I pull a sniffle to break the tears coursing through my eyes and answer him because I know that's the only way to relieve the agony from his face.

"I had heard a conversation where she was talking to somebody and she said she was going to visit that person as she was upset that dad was paying more attention to me so I thought I'll talk to her, make sure she's not feeling alone because I know how much she matters to my dad. I asked her if she was doing okay and she said that she's not good at all,because of me. She told me how I'm a burden when it comes to her freedom. She has limited herself and her life has been a hellhole since the day she realized she has to raise me. I just wanted to help her in any way so I asked her how I can make her feel better, If I should talk to dad or something.She said the only thing that would make her feel better was If i left this house.",I empty my heart out,my eyes bubbling up with wetness as I break down , shielding my eyes with my hand, letting the girth of hand hold my face. My whole body is frail from the memory haunting my brain and there's a huge void in my body filled with pain and distress.I always knew I was a big heft on her but today, the confirmation intensified.

His gaze is fixated on me,speechless and I comprehend looking at him as he stands with a number of emotions running across his skin. His hand is closed in a fist from the anger stinging his veins, his face is drowning in hurt and his fingers clench the phone tightly as if that's the only way he can embrace me. Beneath all this worry, wrath and pain, I feel a warm sense of love enveloping my body when I notice his eyes glistening.

His jaw clenches and he moves forwards towards the edge of the window , he doesn't know another way."Y/n",he speaks hoarsely,"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that you had to hear that because it couldn't be any more untrue.I'm sorry because you really tried to make her feel good and she responded with such cruel words. You don't even deserve the tiniest bit of it.",He assures me but I'm not sure if I'm the only one in need of love. He's almost writhing in sheer desperation to fix my helpless state."I'm sorry y/n. Please believe me when I tell you, you are the most caring and lovable person one can have around them. I'm sorry that it wasn't reciprocated but most of all I'm sorry that I wasn't there with you when you needed me.",The last words make my body jolt to look at him. The noise and thunder of rain pattering down the ground falls in silence and I hear him breathe harder.

"I should've been there with you, baby. Fuck, I shouldn't have let you go alone to talk to her knowing how she talks down to you. I should've protected you before you were even subjected to her treatment. Please know that it's not your fault, in any minuscule way. Whatever she's been feeling towards you has stemmed from her own thinking because I know for a fact that I can't find a better person than you in my life. Not now, not ever.",It's heartbreaking for him to confess this, the stream of tears sliding down his left cheek makes it evident.

I don't even stand a chance at controlling mine as he continues to breathe air in my body from his words."You are full of love and just pure adoration for the people around you. I have seen you joining the isolated students on their lunch table, I have seen you giving away whatever food you have and money you have to the helpless on the streets. Hell, you made my friends food when you barely knew them.I know how giving you are, how you would do anything to make the lives around you better. I know it, because I'm the greatest witness of that. I know it because I have never felt so much affection and care for somebody in all these years. I look at you and all I want to do is to make you feel good, to show you care and happiness and to protect you from all this....all this hurt",his face shadows in honesty,overwhelmed by the feeling escaping his throat but he doesn't seem to grasp any hold,determined to assure how he really feels. I need to stop him.