Rekindling the Flame

Refindling the Flame (6)

Rachel's point of view 

I stared at my phone screen at those words, I looked around my room and then at Mittens, who continued to purr. My phone buzzed again and I jumped slightly and opened the text "If you're awake, meet me at the Breeze Way Park, hope you show." I wasn't sure if I should go, my stomach started to hurt from all of this but I forced the pain aside and got out of bed and slowly put on a pair of plain skinny jeans and a sports bra, and a small tank. I slipped on my flpflops as I held my phone and grabbed a jacket. 

I locked the door and slowly walked towards the park, which wasn't far. The chilly air made me feel like I wasn't covered and I kept having to look down to make sure everything was covered. My stomach began to hurt more as I passed the sign that said you were in the park now. I pulled out my phone from my pocket and was about to text him but then I saw on the bench closest to the sign was a figure, I watched for a second as cigarette smoke floated into the air, I took the risk and made my way over there and sat down, making sure there was about a foot of space between us. 

For about two minutes, there was silence, I turned my head slightly and watched as he took puffs of smoke and then exhaled. I took a deep breath and sighed quietly. "Those are bad for you, you know?" I said, breaking the silence, I could hear him chuckle and he glanced at me, the many street lamps around the park was enough to let me see his face and that meant he could see mine. "You're really small for a twenty seven year old" He said, inhaling a puff of smoke and I just looked down then looked at him again. 

"It's not like I wanted it" I said, looking at him, He looked at me silently, like he was waiting for me to continue. "You made it out like it was my fault I was slightly bigger than the rest of the girls, you made me not want to live. I hated going to school because I knew I would have to see you. All I did was go to school and try to be a good student but you. You made everyone hate me. You made me hate myself to the point where I nearly died. I figured if I was smaller, you would stop. I tried so hard to get thin, but everytime I tried you shoved food in my face, you laughed at me and made me feel worthless. I figured as soon as school ended I would get the body I wanted, everything would stop, and it did. I got the thing I wanted but it destroyed me, I didn't see skinny, I saw fat, I saw what I saw in high school. I went to that meet and greet to prove something, I wanted to prove that I was like the girls you chased after. I went there in hopes you would notice and remember me and like me like I liked you..."

I stopped talking and sat there, I felt the hot tears streaming down my cheeks. "You did that to yourself because of me?" I looked at him again and saw the brims of his eyes were watery. I just nodded. "I thought you would like me if I looked like everyone else." I said, barely above a whisper. "I did like you at once, Rachel. But, I followed everyone else and hurt you because of your weight. I wanted to tell you I liked you but I knew I would get made fun of if I did." Mike said, looking down, I watched him crush his cigarette and stared at the crushed end. "You didn't want to get made fun of so you turned on me?" I asked, feeling my anger build up.

He just shrugged, and it was silent again. I got up silently and walked away, I pulled my jacket around me closer since it got colder and my tears were making my face hurt with numbness from the cold. 

Mike's point of view 

I watched her walk away, I sat there for a while, looking at where she sat. The image of her crying was stuck in my mind, I couldn't shake it. I finally got up and walked back to where the band was all staying. I walked in my room that I shared with Vic and saw that Tony and Jaime were both there, all three of them on the couch, watching some movie. Jaime looked at me and I nodded my head towards the door, telling him to follow me and he slowly got up and we walked out of the door and down the hall. "If you're gonna hit me again, bring it" Jaime said,