They played at some bar in Phoenix and I just waited for them here at the van. Cara kept on insisting that I should go inside and sit by on some tables, but I am really not feeling it today to be on some bar.
I tried calling Kylie to know what she's been up to these past days.
She answered maybe on the 3rd ring.
"Hello Kyles?" I asked. She literally screamed on the phone upon hearing my voice. I think I should now make an appointment to check on my eardrums.
"Kenny! Oh my god! Where the fuck are you!!! How are you? Are you okay? Have you been sleeping?! You left your meds! Have you eaten? I am so worried about you! Just come home! Please!" she said without pausing. I think she has a future on rapping, we should really ask Kanye for that.
I laugh at her, "I'm fine Kyles, nothing to worry about. Surprisingly, I've been really sleeping well! I think this trip to nowhere is really helping me think things through." I said.
"When are you coming back? Can I just come with you?! Mom's really being such a pussy since. . "
"everyday." I interrupted. Then we both laugh at that.
"awwwww. I miss you so much Kenny! Just come home, please. I want my sister here." She said.
Hearing her like this makes me want to come home, but I can't, not now. I still have to move on, completely.
I want to come back to the 'me' I was before Gigi leaving me. I want to come back to the 'me' I am before 'her' happens.
The 'me' that laughs at everything, giggles at silly things, the crazy me.
"I want to; it's just that I really think I need this. I've been really doing better. I will come back Kyles, but not now. I want to find myself again. I want to know that reason why I am living, because before 'she' was my reason, now, I don't have any." I said.
"Kenny, I understand, I just really miss you A LOT!" she replied.
Kylie told me that my dad was really getting worried about my safety. But I told her not to be worried; I am surrounded by really good group of people.
She also said that my dad has been planning on filing a report about me missing, for the police to take actions, but I convince Kyles to talk to dad, and stop him from doing so.
The call ended and it just sink in to me that I miss my family so much. My crazy big family. I miss my mom arguing with me on what to do and don't, lunch with Kim, Khloe and Kyles, going to Kourt's house to play with Mason, P and baby Reign, going to Malibu to see my dad, hanging out with my friends and having an alone time on my apartment.
I get out of the van and lean against the back of it to wait for them. I crossed my arms to my chest because it's really chilly outside. I was kicking some stones trying to entertain myself and to buy some time while waiting for them to finish when a weird looking guy come to me.
"You alone?" He said grinning.
He looks creepy as hell. Like one of those alcoholic people. Baggy pants, large black hoodie and some really old converse.
I look around but there's no one around, just the two of us. The only sound that can be heard is the music from the bar, which can barely be heard, because the doors are shut.
"No, I'm waiting for someone." I answered not looking at him.
He laughs then said, "I think he's not going to show up! Want to get out of here?"
"No! And I'm a lesbian! I don't like dicks! Just like you, I love pussies! Get the hell away from me or I'll call the police, dickhead!" I answered annoyingly.
