Thanks To You {Phan} (BoyxBoy)

Chapter One ~ New School

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Dan's P.O.V.

"Daniel?" my mother said and knocked on my door.

"Mhh?" I answered and buried my head into my pillow.

"Stand up, you've got school! Get ready and eat something downstairs, okay?"

I yawned, stretched myself and stood up.

My mother, my father and I just moved here this weekend and I had to go to school already, how unfair was that?! Although I'd been looking forward to this new opportunity. I missed my old friends, but I had the feeling, we would've seperated if I stayed longer. In my new school I could get a restart.

I put some clothes on, straightened my hair and went downstairs into the kitchen, where my mother sat.

"Good morning, mum.." I mumbled a bit sleepy.

"Good morning, Daniel." she answered.

I just ate a toast because I wasn't that hungry. Then I threw my schoolbag over my shoulder, said goodbye to my mother and went to school. There were many different ways to get to school, but I didn't want to be that late on my first day, so I took a shortcut through a few alleyways that I discovered yesterday. They made me feel uncomfortable, they looked like you could get murdered here and nobody would witness it, but I had to take them. The guys around the corner probably had the same thought.

"Faggot!"

"Get lost!"

"Just kill yourself!"

I decided to not make a turmoil on my first day and took a different way, but I'd check this route again next week and if they were here again, I'd intervene this. I hated bullying and coward people, who were only strong in groups. In my old school there was much bullying and so many people were harassed by others, I hoped my new school would be different.

I arrived at my school and looked around. It looked ordinary, nothing special. I had no idea where anything was, therefore I asked a girl with curly, blonde hair where the office was. She explained the way to me, I thanked her and followed her instructions. When I arrived at the secreteriat I said my name and already got my timetable plus a map of the school. I thanked the woman with a friendly smile and went to my new classroom, which was - thank god - listed in the map. I knocked on the door and entered the room. An older woman looked at me.

"Oh, I guess you're our new student?"

I nodded.

"Alright! I'm Mrs. Inner, your class teacher. Class, this is our new student. Would you like to introduce yourself to the class?" Mrs. Inner asked me.

I nodded again.

"Hello, I'm Dan Howell and 17 years old. I just moved here and I live with my parents."

That should be enough. I looked through all the people and recognized the girl from earlier.

"You can sit over there, in the free seat next to Brad." She pointed at a blonde, thin boy and I sat down next to him. He wasn't the only one beside me. On my right side, there sat a black-haired guy who had glasses on and stared out of the window. He seemed sad, but I guess that was none of my business.

The lessons went fairly quickly and since I was new here, none of the teachers called out my name, so I could just relax.

"Carrie, could you show Dan the school during the break?" Mrs. Inner asked the girl called Carrie.

"Sure!" She stood up and came up to me.

"Hey, I'm Carrie. You're Dan, right?"

"Yeah, that's me."

"Okay, just come with me. I'll show you the whole school."

She showed me everything in the school, the library, the cafeteria, the gym and everything else. Carrie seemed nice and she was pretty, maybe we could become friends.

"Can I ask you one last question?" I asked.

"Go on!"

"So, earlier, in our classroom, there was this pale boy next to me, he had black hair and glasses on."

"What about him?"

"Well, he seemed so sad.."

"Oh. You mean Phil. Well.. I don't know, he is very shy and doesn't talk much. But he has friends and he's always sitting with them, over there. Don't worry about him!" she answered quickly.

"N-no, I don't worry about him, I was just curious..well.. thanks again for the tour!"

"No problem. But I have to go now, club activities! See you later!"

And off she went. She was all the time very nice, but when I mentioned Phil, she became unsettled. Was there something about him? Did people not like to talk about him? Maybe. I looked at the table where he sat with his friends. There were four boys who looked like they were talking about football, but Phil aside and read a book. Were they really friends? None of your business, Dan. Yeah, none of my business, yet I was curious. I shook my head and went to my next lesson.

The rest of the school day went by fast. I paid much attention to Phil, but I didn't know why. He emanated so much sadness, maybe I was just sorry for him.

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One week passed and I became friends with Carrie. We sat together in our lunch breaks and talked about everything. She introduced me to other people which all were pretty cool. Carrie was very nice and a pretty girl, but she wasn't my type. At the moment there wasn't even one girl that I liked. I hadn't got the courage to ask Carrie about Phil again, but somehow I couldn't get him out of my head. Everybody seemed to ignore him and I was just worried about that. I wanted to help him, but I didn't know how to.

Phil's P.O.V.

Last week we got a new student and I hoped, we'd become friends, but he was already friends with the pretty Carrie and I thought they'd be dating soon. She probably told him everything about me, but I didn't want that! That'd be horrible. 

She hasn't Phil, don't worry, calm down. Breathe in. Breathe out. Everything's fine.

No.

It wasn't fine.

It wasn't fine at all.

I felt miserable. Since years. Why did I even take all of this?

Oh. Right. I didn't have a choice. I was forced and too weak to refuse.

Great Phil. You can't even fight back? You deserve everything that happens, and you know it.

No, no, no, NO!

Not again these thoughts. That can't be happening, not now. Not here. Not on my way to school! I tried to calm myself, but when I saw his face, it didn't help. It made everything just worse.

"Well, Lester? Still a faggott?"

"They should invent a cure for being gay!"

I bit on my underlip and turned around. Another known face looked at me. Great.

"Maybe we can beat the gayness out of you?"

Aaand there was the next well known face. I sighed and expected a rough hit, but instead I heard a voice that I couldn't even recognize.

"Drop that idea."