Thanks To You {Phan} (BoyxBoy)

Chapter Three ~ Once

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Dan's P.O.V.

One week passed. I went to school with Phil, we ate lunch together and after school we always went to his house, watched a movie or played videogames. I had a lot of fun and Phil seemed to open up some more. He didn't stutter anymore, well, not in my presence. He did in front of others. I was getting so impatient! I wanted to know everything. What was with his parents? They were never here. And what was with his "friends"? They didn't even bother to talk to Phil. And the bullies? Since when did they beat him up? Were they the only ones? I didn't think so. But what had Phil done? Did they all know each other since they were kids and something happened or so? Or did they not even have a reason to beat him up? I just really wanted to know, I wanted to help Phil. He was such a lovely person and I was so sorry for him.

Why would someone do this to him?

I was on my way for my second lesson. In my first lesson, I had a doctor's appointment and Phil had to go alone. I hoped that he didn't get attacked again. The bullies didn't do something before, so why would they today? I went into the school and Mrs. Inner was running around in the entrance hall and came up to me.

"Daniel? Where were you?! Well, whatever! Come with me!" 

She grabbed my arm and pulled me to the school infirmary.

"What's going on?" I asked.

"Just come with me!"

She opened the door and we went inside. Mrs. Inner parted the curtains and I saw a black-haired boy resting in the bed. Phil? No! Not Phil! Why?

"What happened? Who did this?" That couldn't be true! Once, I wasn't there and something happened. Once!

"Dan, please calm down. Chris will explain everything."

Who was Chris? I noticed a guy with brown hair sitting on a chair (that rhymed lol) besides the bed. Was this one of Phil's 'friends'?

"Hey, I'm Chris Kendall."

"Dan Howell. What the fuck happened?"

"Um, well, before the class started today, four boys came up to Phil and they said everything was his fault and he deserved to be punished and stuff like that.. then they started to beat him up. Nobody else cared and I brang Mrs. Inner. The guys already went to their lessons when we arrived and Phil was hurt" he explained. Oh god!

"Oh..I..I'm thankful, Chris. At least you helped..this goddamn school! Nobody cared! In the middle of the school and nobody even thought of helping him but you.. that can't be true. I was just once not with him and something happens. It's all my fault.." I mumbled.

"No, Dan." 

Phil?

"Phil? Are you awake?"

I made my way to the bed and sat down on the other chair beside him. He just nodded.

"I was so worried, that something would happen to you today, and now it did.. I'm so sorry!"

Phil's P.O.V. 

Flashback to this morning

I was going to school, alone. I was alone because Dan had an doctor's appointment. He apologized like a thousand times, but I could to this. It's just this one little morning!

I arrived at my school and took a deep breath. Nothing could happen here.

That's what I thought. I was wrong. Four well known faces came up to me.

"Alone again, Lester?"

Please don't.

"Did even your 'friend' run away?"

"Who could stay with him more than one week?"

Wait - what if he did? What if he lied?

No, no, he wouldn't do that. They lied.

No Phil. They're right. Nobody would survive with you more than one week. Dan doesn't have a doctor's appointment, he's just bored of you.

No..no..no. LIES! HE'S MY FRIEND!

No Phil. Don't lie to yourself.

I couldn't even think ahead, because I felt a punch.

"That's for our detention."

Another punch.

"Every day!"

And another one.

"You disgusting Faggot!"

I fell on my knees.

Please.. don't, I didn't even do something.. I don't deserve this!

Yes, you do.

I endured some more punches until I blacked out.

End of flashback

"You shouldn't be sorry! It's my fault. Don't worry about me" I said, but actually, I was very happy, because Dan did care about me.

He doesn't. He's lying. He doesn't give a shit about how you feel!

YES, HE DOES!

"Phil, no, nothing of this is your fault! What kind of a friend would I be if I didn't care about you? I was worrying so much!"

I noticed that we were alone now. Where did Chris and Mrs. Inner go?

"What if something worse happened? This is bad enough! Come on Phil, how much does it hurt?"

"It's alright, I'm used to i- I mean, it's okay!"

"Can you walk?"

"I think so, they just punched me in the face and upper body.."

"When are you allowed to go home?"

"They didn't tell me.."

"Then I'll walk you home. You need some rest and you surely won't get it here."

"N-no, it's alright.." I mumbled. Dan stood up and took our bags.

"Please."

I couldn't resist his request, sighed and stood up. I had lied to him. They hit me everywhere. Somehow we managed it to get me home, but we didn't really talk on the way. We went without any words into my room and I had to held my tears back.

"Phil?"

I looked at Dan, who sat beside me. "Hm?"

"You.. well.. earlier, you said it wasn't the first time.. and you were used to it.. please Phil.. I am worrying so much, what's going on?"

I took a deep breath.

"I.. that's a long story. If you want to understand, I'd have to tell you everything."

Could I really trust him?

No.

But he's my best friend.

No!

I want to tell someone and he wants to hear it, so why not?

NO!

"Phil, you can tell me everything. Really. I'll just listen and say something if you want. If you don't want me to say something afterwards, that's okay too. Unless you don't want to tell me."

I decided against the voice in my head and wanted to tell Dan everything.

"Alright."