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Phil's P.O.V.
It was the 31st of December and I'd finally see Dan again. His family came to visit all the days after Christmas, so I couldn't see him all this time. Well, we texted each other, but that wasn't the same.
Our conversation on Christmas Eve were really interesting, even though it was weird to talk about kissing or love with him. I was surprised that he'd never kissed someone and maybe even was bi or gay. Did I have a chance with him..?
No, Phil.
Oh, shut up!
When Dan got his present and said "i lov-" said, I felt really nice. Even though he didn't mean it like that, it was nice to hear it from him. I was also very glad that he wanted to go to this party with me. Currently, I was walking to Dan. I dressed up to impress him a little bit, and because I'd probably meet many people today. I got to Dan's house, rang the bell and he opened the door. We hugged each other - he was smelling so nice!
"Hey Phil."
"Hi Dan."
"Do you know where Finn lives?"
I shook my head.
"Okay, I'll show you."
Dan looked nice as hell - like everytime. But something was different today, he looked even better. He wore black skinny-jeans, his black sneakers, a black shirt and a black leatherjacket over it - yes, he just wore black, but he looked so sexy in it. Suddenly, he looked at me and laughed.
"What are you staring at? Is my beauty dazzling you?"
"You wish!", I said, even though he was right.
"Ah, here is it."
It was a big building with a gigantic garden. There were people everywhere.
"His parents are always in Paris in the winter holidays, that's why everyone can come", Dan explained to me.
"Oh, alright."
We went inside and Dan told me we'd see each other later again, then he disappeared in the crowd. I realized how much I depended on him. Alone, I was just standing around and didn't know what to do. I got a drink and sat down, then a girl walked up to me. Since I was just stuttering, she took a leave again. I sighed, because after 2 more hours, nobody had talked to me. Then Dan sat down beside me.
"And, how's it going?"
"Uhm.. it's okay.. I guess", I answered.
"Great! It's new year in a minute!"
"Wait what? Already?"
"Yeah!"
"Oh."
Another year was ending and I was finally becoming happier. This last minute felt like the longest moment of my entire life. Dan and I got closer every second and stared into each others eyes. My heart was beating faster than ever - would I really get a new years kiss from Dan Howell? Everyone started counting from ten and I got even more excited. Our lips were nearly touching, when someone tapped their hand on our shoulders. Dan and I jumped apart.
"I hope you're having a great time? Happy new year!"
It was Finn, who was walking around the whole evening and making sure that everyone was enjoying the party. Great!
"Yes, everything's fine", Dan replied.
"Happy New Year, Phil."
"Happy New Year, Dan."
"We'll see each other later again, okay?"
And off he went.
Dan's P.O.V.
"We'll see each other later again, okay?", I said to Phil and went outside. That couldn't be true! I nearly kissed Phil - and then Finn gatecrashed it. Perfect. Really. I couldn't do this anymore. I had to find out if I really love him. I searched for a girl who looked like she was really drunk and flirted with her. I didn't feel anything. No butterflies in my stomach, like I had them whenever I just looked at Phil. I wasn't feeling excited while talking to her. I didn't want to kiss her. I felt nothing. I really was in love with Phil. My phone was vibrating and I looked at it. A new text from Phil. I ignored the girl and read it.
"Hey, I think, I'll go now. Have fun!"
I texted back quickly.
"No, wait outside, okay? I'll come with you, I wanted to leave anyway."
I went outside and saw Phil standing at the street.
"Hi Phil. Is everything alright?"
"Sure, can we go home now?"
He smiled, but I knew it was fake. Yet I smiled back.
"Sure, let's go home."
Phil and I went back and I offered him to stay overnight, but he denied and said we'd see each other again in school.
Since it was late, I went to sleep. What happened today was so frustrating! I really nearly kissed him, but Finn had to interrupt us! I should give him up. Maybe we weren't meant for each other? At least he knew that I was bi or gay, but just because of that I shouldn't raise my hope! I should really forget him.
A/N: Sorry, this chapter is really short.
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Thanks To You {Phan} (BoyxBoy)
Fanfiction"New school, new people, new friends!" Dan thought the day before he started at his new school. He didn't think he'd meet especially this boy. [No suicide, no eating disorders etc.]
