Failed (a sequel to broken more than smashed glass janoskians, Luke brooks)

Chapter 24

WARNING: this chapter might be triggering. This chapter is based on Seth's past and he has been thou a few thing some of you might relate to, so you can see why. Also it touches on child abuse, depression e.g so some people might find this chapter upsetting (it's a bit graphic) 

No pov

"Sir, I'm sorry to inform you but your wife has died in childbirth" the nurse said to the intelligent, hard working man who had lost the woman he loved more than anything in the world. All she was now was a body under a sheet. The man was hurt. So hurt. He had lost his world. He was handed a small defenceless baby wrapped in a blanket. The child was peacefully sleeping, unaware of the destruction which has just occurred. The man stared. He wouldn't smiled at the thing who has killed his Love. He would not love the thing that killed his world. 

Ever since his wife has passed on, the man picked up a bad habit. Alcohol. "First you take a drink, then the drink takes a drink then the drink takes you" 

Seths mums pov

"Right you little shit, you killed my wife" he yelled at my little baby. My Seth. It wasn't his fault, it really wasn't. I could only watch the man I loved brake him self down. He use to be superman and now he's the joker. And he's started to treat Alfie and Seth in ways no father should. And all I can do is watch. 

"Don't talk to baby like that" Alfie shouted and dived infront of Seth. Aflie is 3. He's a lovely handsome lad who is very protective over things. 

"Shut up you little shit" my husband yelled at my 3 year old. I felt a tear slip down my face. I want to step in and help him. My husband then pushed Alfie out of the way, causing him to go flying to the side and hitting his head on the wall. Alfie then stood up again. I wanted to just grab Seth and Alfie and save them but I can't. Alfie then ran to his father and started to bash his little fists into my husband. 

"Daddy no, don't hurt baby, hurt me instead, daddy no" he screamed and tears began to fall down his face. The man I once loved turned around to my son. His face red with rage. He grabbed Alfie's wrist and dragged him over to the wall

"Fine you asked for it you little shit" he then started to smash his head into the wall repeatedly, blood was starting to stain the wall and my child's screams were destroyed. He was screaming for him to stop and wanted "mummy" he screams of pain were unbearable. I felt my heart just rip, I can't do anything but watch. More blood splashed out and soon the screams stopped. No. My baby. His lifeless body then dropped to the floor all limp, his head a distorted bloody mess. He was only 3!  

Time passed and that monster continued to hurt my baby. I was surprised Seth had made it this far, but since that fucker needed someone to hurt he managed to keep Seth alive to keep as a punch bag. It was sick and no child should go thou this. The child can bearly speek for Christ sake. 

I watched Seth sat on the window and looked out into the rain and fog, daydreaming and praying for help, he was too younge to talk and ask for help but he Knows a leather belt (yes I quoted black and blue my neon hitch so listen to it while reading this). He was smiling at his daydream, he looked okay to anyone outside but I've herd his crys way too often. 

It was time for Seth to start school. He went and got on fine. His bruises were hidden and got passed off as he was a clumsy child. That bastard of a father acted like a good father when around people so he looked good, but I wanted to see how long he could last like this, I know his mind was slipping and he'd be soon to lose it. 

Seth was 13. He was tired, broken but still putting on a strong face. He grew up around this so he's never known a normal family and I'm surprised he's managed this far. He's also become friends with a boy, and Seth is very helpful to this boy, guess he's got his brothers protectivity. Seth also got a girl friend. She seemed okay. Seth had strong feelings for her. Like his father he felt love extreamly which worried me. What if he turned into his father. No I can't think that. Anyway this girl she cheated on him and it distorted him. He fell even more depressed then he was and he couldn't hide it. He didn't even cry when his father damaged him. Seth started to self harm and stopped eating. He was a mess and he was only 13. One day he tried to send himself to the angels. 

Yes I lay with the angles but its no place to be. I'm positive life with get better for him even if he dosnt believe it yet. 

13 year old Seths pov

No one loves me, I killed my mother. My father hates me and covered me in purple and blue marks. My girlfriend cheated on me because I'm not good enough. Maybe if I die then I can put Everyone out of their misery, I have no purpose here. Oh sorry I do, it's to be a punch bag, but that's no way to live.  I already use my skin as a canvas and a knife as a paintbrushe, ahh yes I have many pictures on my skin. Now it's time to finish the painting. (I did a drama play and that was inspired by a poem we had to read, and it was while my friend (who was doing thou it) was in my group and my teacher made her read it 😪) 

Seths mums pov

But deep down he knew that he couldn't do this. He knew that many there was a chance and he needed to just wait. Wait for this storm to pass. He's find someone to be the chocolate in his salad. 

Seth did go on and his school grades were bad and his father was getting worse. 

One day thou he went to tea at his friends house and saw a girl. When I saw her I instantly knew she was the one for him. They got on well and took him in. That's when I relised. She's the chocolate to his salad and they got on well. Finally my son is happy. Let just hope his mother fucker of a father will not try anything funny, becuase his mind is hanging on the every edge and then weeeeeeeeeee it fell... The fucker had lost his shit and knew pretending to be the perfect father was over. He couldn't hang on any longer when Seth had put on a brave face for his whole life so hide this shit. 

Authors pov

Sorry if it failed I wanted to make it not too long but also explain Seths past in a way in which you can catch details and emotions of the characters, but I failed. 

I found a perfect song for a little situation I'm in OMG 😂😂 (basically my really stupid ex best friend is liked by this guy (I like him) and I was sat on a table next to him and his friends was talking to him about my ex BFF and he asked his friend as him "what would you do if *ex bffs name* wanted to go do it with you in the woods now" and the guy said "I dunno" then his friend said "she's wont know what to do" 😂😂😂) I'm sorry I hate her so much I just want to rant cos I'm in a bad mood. 

So if anyone needs to talk about anything I am here for you to message. It can be anything from wether you think you need a hair cut or not or something like bullying or depression over even child abuse. I have had my exsperiances we all have so do feel free to talk about anything)