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2026 update

hey everyone!!

every year for the last couple of years, i've updated this book. i guess partly for my sake to make note of how life is changing, but partly for my old readers. obviously i wrote this book mostly in 2019, when i was 13, and god how things change.

first of all, im unsure if anyone who read this back then is even active anymore but if you are, please drop a comment!!!

so. update. i'm 20.

i never thought id still be on this website at this age. i wrote this 7 years ago. nearly a decade. i still feel like that weird 13 year old kid. honesty is, i was ostracised a lot for my interests, being undiagnosed neurodivergent, and generally being the 'weird girl'. in the last couple of years i went blonde, lost weight, wear a lot of makeup, and generally grew into my features. i'm confident in myself and for the first time in my life im considered 'pretty', and people like me - which is weird, cos i haven't changed inside and yet im being treated completely differently.

this last year has been the hardest one of my life. i don't want to get too much into it, but i got into a couple of bad relationships and really lost myself for a moment, and now? im finally rebuilding and getting back on track.

i also came to the realisation im a lesbian recently. i finally feel like im finding myself and if i could go back in time and tell 13 year old me that id be okay? i would.

i still love don't hug me im scared. i have a massive poster on my wall. i still write fanfic. a lot of it. im going into my final year of uni and am so proud of myself for working hard.

i hope anyone reading this is doing good. you're all fab.

see you when i'm 21!!

- char