Dear Jerome (Merome) (Dear Mitch)

9th April 2030

Dear Jerome,

It's really going to be annual entries now. This was only meant to be a temporary thing, but it still niggles in the back of my mind.

Problem is, I have nothing to say to you. All I have is a heart that belongs to you. This is my life, rather than a document of whatever I initially intended it to be.

On a different note, Lachlan came over again, and he brought Ben with him. Ben is nine, and I swear, has the chubbiest cheeks ever.

And this is coming from me.

Amanda was there with him, and it was a sharp reminder about love. Over ten years of marriage, and they still look as in love with each other as they did when they first met.

Lachlan is in the same boat as me with YouTube right now, barely doing anything. He's trying to upload, but you know how it is. It doesn't have appeal anymore.

He did, however, tell me he wanted an aviary.

I'm pretty sure it's just so he can get a bunch of birds and name them 'pidgeys'.

Ben, being the nine-year-old he is, though, decided that playing with a basketball in the house was a good idea.

Yeah... not so much.

Thank goodness I live in a house, imagine the terror of living in an apartment more than one storey off the ground.

There's a really unnecessary smile on my face as I wrote that, because I'm now imagining a ball hitting someone on the head after a minimum of a ten feet drop.

He didn't break a window, just opened a door and nearly took out a few birds perched in a tree in the garden.

Needless to say, the ball stayed outside from then.

This time though, Lachlan didn't get drawn on. It's crazy just how much everything has changed in the past years, to the degree where Amanda keeps her pen off Lachlan, he no longer gets salty over everything, and their kid is actually able to walk.

I gotta say though, Ben playing basketball brought back a few memories. It was mainly of the occasional times we went to basketball games, like that one in 2015.

It also made me think of the times when we were ten and friends, getting riled up over the little things, but also fixing everything in seconds.

Now, I wonder if we're even repairable.

I like to think we are, but some parts take longer than others.

Eg. You forgiving me, me forgiving you, you forgiving you, and me forgiving me.

Oh God, I'm truly a mess now.

Anyway, back to Lachlan and co.

He still retains his love for Chipotle, but we convinced him to not go every single day, because he is a weird guy who wants Mexican chicken all day, every day.

Ben also brought up Taylor, surprisingly. By the sounds of what he and Lachlan have said, your families are really close and visit each other often. Even I don't see him as much as you do, but then again, I don't see many people anymore. I've subconsciously distanced myself a little, but I do want to change that.

I want to see more of my friends more often, especially since I have the time. You, through a long chain of events, ended up giving me a lot of time on my hands, and I want to put that time to good use.

I lost you, but I won't lose my other friends.

That, and one day, this available time will get you back, even if we can't fulfill all our wants from each other.

I would use every second I have to reverse the ones I lost.

Oh yeah, if we're on the subject of time, I saw a penguin clock yesterday in Target, and thought of you. It's almost tempting to buy it as a memory, but I decided against it because I was feeling cheap, and while I constantly deny it to myself, the last thing I need to do is remind myself I love you.

Still, I also don't want to lose this feeling, because there's nothing better than the feeling of falling for someone else, and the sparks that happen between you two.

It's just worth looking before you fall.

Love you long time,
Mitch.

While I write this, the rain is pouring and I swear the weather does not like me right now. That, and I'm sorry these chapters aren't getting any better *sigh*

*cries*

Amber