Gone Girl

Strength

Chapter 12
(The next day )
Rachels pov :
I walked into the choir room the next day and everyone was staring at me. I sat down next to Finn and he took my hand . "Okay guys so I changed my lesson plan this week instead of doing ballads we are going to talk about bullying. " Mr.Shue said. "Mr.Shue." I said. He looked at me and said, "Yes Rachel? " He asked me. "I think I have a song that we can use at Nationals its an orginal song though. " I said. "Okay go ahead. " He said. I got up and sat down on the piano and started :
( Rachel )
What have I done?
I wish I could run,
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?

Can I start again, with my faith shaken?
Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through this

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?
(Gets up)
So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air,
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair!
Yeah, I'll send out a wish, yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see how much I care

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
(Back to piano)
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take, to get it right?
To get it right?
(End of song )
Tears rolled down my face and without a word Finn got up and hugged me and then Quinn and then everyone else except Kurt who was suspended. Later on Finn was at my house and we were lying on my couch watching Funny Girl when Finn paused the movie and said , "Rachel can I ask you something? " He asked me. "Sure." I said. "Why didn't you come to me when you were about to commit suicide?" He asked me. I looked down and started to fidle with my fingers, "I was scared Finn." I told him . "Of what?" He asked me. "That you would hate me ." I said? "I could never hate you Rachel Berry. " He told me. "I know. " I said. "I'll be right back. " He said and went into the kitchen. A couple of seconds later he came out with a marker and moved my hair and said , "Hold still ." And then wrote something on my forehead. "What did you write?" I asked him. He took out his phone and said , "Smile." I smiled and he took the picture and showed it to me, "Strength. " He said and I smiled . "Gimme that marker ." I said. He smirked and gave it to me and I wrote something and took a picture and showed it to me , "Courage." I said. He smiled and said , "I got an idea."