Gone Girl

Don't Ignore This

Chapter 20
Finns pov :
(1 week later )
I haven't talked to Rachel since I found out about her and Puck sleeping together. I told her it was fine and we can just move on but the truth is its not okay and it will never be. I haven't spoken to her because I'm afraid that I might say something I don't really mean . I know I hurt her but she hurt me too. I was at home studying when there was a knock on my front door . I got up and went down stairs to open the door only to see Rachel standing there in my letterman jacket with my mom . "Hey Rach." I said. "Hi Finn , can we talk , alone ?" She asked me. "Um yeah why don't we go to my room." I said . "Great. " She said and we went upstairs. We silently walked into my room and she sat down on the bed and I closed the door. "Its been awhile since I've been up here." She said. "Well nothing has really changed." I said. "Yeah." She said. She looked over at my night stand and saw the picture of us on our first date. "This was a long time ago." She said. "Yeah it feels just like yesterday. " I told her. "Finn." She said. "Yeah Rach?" I asked. "Why won't you talk to me about this?" She asked me. "What do you me to say Rachel I mean I just don't know what you want from me I forgave you . " I told her. "I want you to yell at me Finn , to be angry at me , to kick over a chair , cry , but don't ignore it don't act like everything is okay when we both know its not!" She said. "What do you want from me Rachel! Huh? Your right I am angry at you! I am furious that you slept with Puck okay! I can't ever look at you the same like I once did god damn it ! I apologize for sleeping with Quinn last year , I apologized because when I said it meant nothing it really didn't mean anything but when you slept with Puck you did it to hurt me , the one thing that you said you never do !" I yelled kicking over a chair. I calmed down then said, "You said you never hurt me . You said that I was the only one for you Rachel. So how could you hurt me like that ?" I asked her. She looked at me and said , "I am so so sorry Finn. I never wanted to hurt you I just I was hurt to hear it was true and I do love you. " She told me. I sat down and clenched my fist and said , "I think we should go on a break." I told her. She bit her lip and looked down at the floor. "Is that what you want?" She asked me. "No , but I just think we need time apart to think about what we want and to be honest it would just be easier if we didn't associate at all." I told her. "Okay then I guess we're over then." She said. She got up and took off my letterman jacket and gave it to me. "I really am sorry Finn." She said and left .