Tbh Idk What To Call This

"Don't worry it'll be fine."

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You pulled out a clean silver razor. You were about 8 months clean and your scars were starting to fade. You began crying quietly and made the first mark. Ten minutes later your arms and legs were covered and stained crimson red.

"I can't believe myself. I'm such a fucking idiot." You thought crying on the floor. You got up and fixed yourself covered up and went out. Fresh cuts generally hurt when you move and they bubble so you didn't want hugs or anything.

Mikey saw you were crying and asked why. You said "Just stuff. With some friends. Don't worry." Mikey went to you and gave you a big long hug and a tear rolled down your cheek. It took every ounce of you not to scream and cry but it didn't matter the red had seeped through the fabrics.

"Y/n... Why are your clothes suddenly red?" Mikey asked. You looked down and began crying and fell to the floor. Mikey took off your sweatshirt and saw all them and saw your red pants. "Y/n... Why?" He asked running his hand over the fresh cuts making you flinch.

"I don't know. I just missed them. And my razor. I couldn't do it. My mind got to me..." You said. You honestly didn't know why, you just kind of lost sanity for a minute.

"I'll call Johnnie and bryan." Mikey said. "No! I told them i was fine and johnnie is out with Alex tonight. I don't want to interrupt." You said. "Then just bryan." He said. You were crying so much he couldn't hear you say no. Even if he heard you he would still call bryan.

"Bryan come here as fast as you can. Don't bring Johnnie. He's on a date don't interrupt him." Mikey said. Bryan said "Ok." And got to your room. You were sitting on the chair curled up in a ball.

"Y/n! What happened?!" Bryan said. You explained you didn't know and bryan helped bandage you. "Good you dont need stitches. Y/n, you have to tell Johnnie and luke." Bryan said. "Johnnie is busy. Well tell him tomorrow. But why luke." You said. "Because you know he cares and he'll ask question when he sees you if your sleeve slips or the fact its summer and you have wi ter attire on." You frowned and said fine. Mikey suddenly looked angry.

Luke came as fast as he could and all four of you talked and you felt better. Then johnnie walked in. "Where's Alex?" Bryan said. "She went home. She says bye though." Johnnie said. He saw a crowd around you and asked what happened and pushed them out of the way to see you still soaked in red.

"Y/n..." He said. "I'm sorry johnnie." You said starting to cry again. Johnnie hugged you and said "Don't worry it'll be fine." The rest of the night the boys stayed with you and made sure you were okay.

The next morning you woke up still in pain but in a better mood.