sturniolo/nate imagines 2

☆Trust p2-Matt

They're like 16 now.

Y/N POV

He rolled over me as i rolled onto my back, spreading my legs so he could kneel between them.
He's getting better and better at this, I'm getting more and more horny every time.
He slides his hand up my thigh, around my hip, then down to my ass. I like it every time.
He leaned even closer, his lips speading up against mine. I'll think about this tonight. Think and think until and I can't take it, and i touch myself. I don't why, I'm never any good at it, it relieves nothing.
Just makes me feel guilty, I don't know if I should think about him like that. I know he's my boyfriend, but what if he wouldn't want me to?
We've never talked about having sex. I don't know if he'd even want to. I'm to scared to bring it up.
But I think about it, a lot. What if would be like, to be with him. Then I think about what it would be like for him to be with me, and i get why he hasn't brought it up.
But if he didn't want to, would he be grabbing my ass right now? Would he make out with me almost every day? He thinks about it. He has to.
His lips pulled away from mine and he lowered his head to pant into my neck. I sighed, my hands falling out of his hair to rest above my head.
It's over. It's always eventually over. He pressed a kiss to my neck and raised his head. I took another breath hoping my cheeks would stop burning.
"Why do you always look so sad when we have to stop?" He twirled a piece of my hair around his finger. We never have to stop.
"I like kissing you." I said honestly. He stared at me, then at my lips, and kissed me again. Slower, but deeper.
Why does he do this to me? He has to know what he's doing.
His hands slid up my arms, then grabbed my hands, our fingers intertwining as he put his weight on them.
Oh my god.
I squirmed a bit, just to feel the pressure of it more, he started to pull away, my lips chased his. He kissed me more firmly his hips are touching mine.
If I moved my just an inch, I could feel it.
Suddenly I was frozen in fear.
What i didn't mention is that realistically sex absolutely terrifies me. He's going to put his dick inside me?
Not happening. As much as I love to think about the idea of it, that sounds like my worst nightmare.
He'll see me naked. No one should see me naked. I don't even look at myself naked.
Surely the second he saw what's under the hoodies and sweatpants, he'd run for the hills.
But it's not much of a secret. I'm fat under my clothes to. Big surprise. But maybe he doesn't know what fat people actually look like.
I'm being ridiculous. Just kiss him.

(Time skip)

I kiss Matt a lot, even more than normal lately, but he kisses me to.
In my bed, in his bed, his car, his couch, Chris's bed once.
His touches keep getting more and more bold. I like it. But during the day when i think about going farther, I'm so nervous I could puke.
Then when I think about it at night I think I want to do it the next day. I'm confusing myself.
And when I kiss him, like I'm doing right now. I think about how confused I am.
What would happen if we did it? Would we be closer? Would it go so horribly I could never look at him the same?
He suddenly pulled away, and stared at me.
"What?" I whispered.
"Can I ask you something...personal?"
"Yeah," I ran my fingers through his hair at the back of his head. He leaned into it, but looked away.
"Um. Have you, ever, thought about...uh.."
"Yes." I cut off his mumbling and he looked down at me, mouth slightly open. I've been waiting for him to bring it up.
"Really?" I nodded, forcing myself not too look away from him. "Well i have to, and I think about it a lot, actually. I was just scared to bring it up, because i thought you wouldn't wanna talk about that stuff."
"I wanna talk about it."
"Like..you wanna do it?" He asked quietly. That's not exactly what I said.
"I..wanna talk about it."
"Right, ok. So, we've never done it before."
"Yeah."
"I really do, wanna do it with you." The way he said it made me really believe he'd never want to do it with anyone else.
"I wanna do it with you."
"Really? You wanna let me..take it?"
"If you'll let me take yours." I smiled a bit as I thought about it.
Since I was young I wanted my first time to be with someone who was a virgin to. I tried to talk myself out of it, not get my hopes up. But ever since I've been with Matt, my hopes have been as high as they could possibly be.
"Of course. You're my girl, I want it to be you." He wants it to be with me
"I want it to be with you." He kissed me again, it wasn't very good, we were smiling to hard.
"Do you have a time frame for this?" He asked against my lips.
"Soon." I said firmly. I've never been so sure.