Little Red Notebook

Surrender

What is the meaning of life?

I ask myself

as I stare down

the grays and lights

below me.

I took a step forward

Is this what I want?

All the cars moving,

people walking

minding their own business.

Can they not see?

How can they not care at all?

I wanted to scream and yell

"Here I am ready to jump!"

But there they are

not even sparing me

one look.

And I realized,

No matter how many times

I wave my arms,

shout at the top of my lungs

no one would bother.

Because I am a nobody.

Because every minute

 of  their lives are so precious

that not one or anyone at all

would even glance at me.

My decision is made.

It's time to take 

the step forward.

Be gone in a snap

and let the height 

of this building swallow me whole.

Shatter me to pieces

and forget 

that I was ever in the face of the earth.

Written by: jme_28