*June 2011*
"Happy 10 Months baby!" I screamed as I ran into his bedroom. Last night was dads birthday so I spent the night with the family.
Levi rolled onto his back so he could look at me but when he did I hate what I saw. He was definitely sick again. Black bags under his eyes from no sleep. His eyes were an off grey again, but this time I noticed something new, on his stomach and reaching around into his back were red marks, like he had a million hickeys on him, even though I knew it wasn't.
"Happy 10 months beautiful." He said in a low husky voice holding his throat.
"Are we going to the doctors again?" I asked observing his stomach and chest. He shook his head but it looked like it pained him to do even that.
"He won't do anything, I just have to wait until August. I guess its only 2 months away." He pulled the blankets up over his body and closed his eyes. I lay down next to him and put my head on his chest. I could hear his heart beating loudly and extremely fast.
I put my hand on his arm and stroked it lovingly. I hated seeing him so sick, it killed me inside know there was nothing I could do.
As we're laying there silently, I feel my phone buzz in my pocket. I pull it out and see that I had 3 messages from Reece.
Hello love, I'm thinking that we should hang tonight. just us.
love you boo DX
ELLE. come over this afternoon, mum misses you dude!
Mum bought us SOUR STRAPS! don't leave me alone on my birthday!
I had totally forgotten it was Reece's birthday because I was too busy worrying about Levi being sick. I looked up at Levi who was fast asleep. I slipped out of his embrace and quickly scribbled a note that said "Hey babe. we fell asleep. I have to go see Reece, I forgot it's his birthday. I'll come back in the morning. Get better baby. xo" I grabbed my shoes and left his house with a quick goodbye to his family. I walked to Reece's house, which luckily was only a 10 minute walk and let myself in like normal. I ran up to his room and jumped on him still in bed. I kissed him on the cheek, and screamed happy birthday. I swear I looked like a kid on Christmas.
Reece jolted out of bed making me fall onto the floor with a thud. "Yeah happy birthday Loser!" I quickly hopped back up and straightened myself out again. Once I had recomposed myself I climbed back into bed and turned on the TV. I had a habit of making myself at home at his house. Just as the TV came on Reece's dad came bursting through his door and ran over and tackled me. I hugged him with everything I had and started laughing. John always did this when I came over.
"Hey daddy." I smiled as I let go of him.
"Hey baby girl. I feel like I haven't seen you in forever! You don't love me anymore do you." He pretended to cry as he sat down on the bed next to me.
"Of course I still love you. But dad, i'm growing up! I have a boyfriend now, so I'm always with him. Mainly because he's always sick." I sighed heavily and started playing with the promise ring he gave me.
"I understand, my baby girl is in love. I guess I can forgive you then. How's Levi doing anyway?" He grabbed my hand and inspected the promise ring with a small smile on his face.
"He's ok. I've definitely seen his better days, he's just getting even worse but the doctor won't do anything until August when he gets his scans and crap." I felt my eyes watering up so I breathed in heavily to hold it back. Just when John was about to speak, Reece coughed loudly and stared at his dad.
Without a word John left the room with a worried look on his face. Before closing the door he blew me a little kiss like normal and within a second he was gone.
"Elle, do not say anything. It's my birthday so just shut up and listen ok. I love you! I have loved you since we were 4 I will love you til the day I die. But what kills me is that you knew, and you didn't care. You didn't care how I felt when you started dating Levi, you didn't even take a second glance at me. What hurts even more is at 12am this morning, I didn't get that normal wake up phone call. Why? Because you were with him again! You forgot my birthday because you were too busy with Levi! I'm over being second choice to you Elle! I was excited to see you again, but I don't even care anymore! Just don't bother talking to me at school, or calling me when everything with Levi goes down hill. I hope you are happy together because I'm over you. Leave please. Close my door on the way out." I felt my eyes tear up but I didn't saying. I stood up, grabbed my bag and ran. But not without kissing him on the cheek one last time.
I didn't want to worry Levi with my issues when he was sick, so I ran straight home. I didn't say hello to dad I just ran up to my room, jumped on my bed after slamming my door shut. I laid in bed for hours crying. Levi had been trying to call me all day but I ignored the calls and texts from him. I knew he was worried about me, but at that moment, I didn't care.
