Heaven: The Story of an Assassin

Chapter 22. Zeus

Maybe turning that humanity off will be better for me. I've done it before, I can do it again.

Chapter 22. Zeus

If death is like this, that feeling of being in a place that's too familiar and being in a place you don't want to be in ever, then I'd rather not have it.

I'm surprised I'm not yet dead. What happened anyway? How long was I out? A day? Two? A week?

I remember the hurt I'm feeling. My heart breaking into pieces. That's all I remember. Or I want to remember. Well, why do I have to remember something painful?
What happened after he fired that shot? Where am I?

I try to open my eyes and see this familiar ceiling. I try to groan. Why am I here? Of all places...

"I see you're awake." And that familiar voice. I couldn't believe I'm hearing it again.
I try to stand up, maybe try to flee the penthouse, go back to my own little house and never see him again. But the moment I moved, pain erupts in my neck.

"Careful, you just came from an operation, dear," Nixon Black warns. "Just a graze but still close to your jugular vein. Could have been worse. But you'll be fine. The doctors said you were more emotionally stressed than physically injured that you needed that rest."

"W--" I try to say but talking hurts. Well, actually I can't talk.

"Don't try to speak either, it's not good for you yet," he says. How badly I want to get out of this place. His face comes into my view. "You wonder why you're here?" He asks and obviously knows the answer. "Your little friend told me about you. Told me he has a gift for me if I just had to come down and see that place. I couldn't believe it when I found you bloody on the hallway."

What? Seven gave me away? And to none other than him? Nixon Black?! I couldn't help but feel the anger slowly boiling in me. I would've accepted anything he will do to me, but to give me to Nixon Black? He knows I hated Nixon Black! How dare he?!

"Now you know how cruel the outside world can be, dear," he says. "You can't trust anyone. You may not like it but I'm all that you have..." He smiles at me. "I'm giving you another chance to be with me."

Nothing makes sense now. The pain, the anger, the sorrow and several emotions are still clouding up that I don't know what is wrong, right or what. I can't believe Seven gave me away! What about those times that he---

Ugh, Leanne! Why can't you accept it? It was all an act from him! He never cared. All he wanted from you is to take away your life! He made it clear from the very beginning yet you let it slip. You ignored it! You made a fool out of yoursel! What was it that he told you that night?

"You really want to know the truth? I'm here to kill you."

I sob unknowingly. The pain is too much I couldn't bear it. How foolish I could have been to let him in my life? I felt sooo stupid into thinking I could be happy with someone and god, of all people!

"Hush, now my dear. I know it hurts," he says coming to aid me like he used to do. No matter how hateful Nixon Black is, he's right. He's always been the one who was there for me. "No one will hurt you now, my dear." I should have believed Nixon Black. Yeah, all I have to do is to be cold and numb. Which shouldn't be that hard.

Being human is difficult. Maybe it's really not for me. Maybe turning that humanity off will be better for me. I've done it before, I can do it again.

HEAVEN

I spend the next few weeks healing my wound and also I started going back to my trainings. I say I've never been better. I feel empowered and invincible once again and that feeling of confidence flows in me. And how my body missed that feeling. That feeling of being strong, being dominant despite the single body I'm occupying. I feel like I could take on the world anytime I want.