Going Down With A Fight

~Chapter 27~

I tweeted a Thank you to all my fans and went to sleep. I had a sad dream from my past. I was onstage in  my black skirt and sophisticated dress shirt and cardigan. I was performing my 2nd grade performance.

~Dream~

 I was in the talent show and Sang, Winter in Me by Skylar Grey. I had won.

The past me sang perfectly,

"When the autumn colors pass, through the seasons hour glass. Once again there is winter in me."

I played the piano withsuch small hands that delicately and quickly pressed the keys as though it may break.

"When November's grass is brown, by the frost upon the ground. It is then you'll find the winter in me."

A blue light was shown behind me. I was stuck in a chair. I looked around and saw many parents waiting patiently to see their own kid perform on stage.

"But underneath the fallen snow, lies a harvest that's yet to come. For just as Spring is guaranteed, Life is etched into the seed. Time to welcome the winter in me."

I watched as I need the song. And swiftly got up to bow. I started to walkoff stage with tears. I remember  thoughts of my Mother in my head as the sang that song the winter after she died. Just as I was tearing up about my past, I looked over and saw my mother walking towards me. She had her arm linked with my father's. They were both happy and finally at peace.They saw me and sent warm assuring smiles. Safety and Love had washed over my body. I looked at my Whaley hands that were instantly being held in my mother's. I looked into her eyes. She smiled and kissed my forehead. I sobbed because I couldn't feel her touch. I I looked over to my father and he hugged me. Again, nothing. No warmth, strength, or cold air. Nothing. I cried and he held my shoulders. I looked at him and he mouthed, "I'm sorry baby girl" I felt my tears streaming down my face. I looked to my mother and she mouthed "We love you and your siblings so much." 

They hugged each other and the crowd was exiting the auditorium. My parents left so quickly. I chased after them. Guilt rushed over my, I didn't say goodbye. I ran throughout the crowd screaming and crying harder than ever before. I wanted to hug them for real. I want to hear those words come out of their own mouths. I wanted to be with them and have our family reunited. I screamed over and over and my voice ran out. I was mute. I screamed and screamed though nothing came out. The area began to darken and I could hear less, everything was fading around me. I was crying so very hard.

~End of Dream~

I woke up in a cold sweat panting. I wiped my tear stained face and cried silently. I never wanted to forget that dream ever. 

I walked downstairs and grabbed my phone. I sat on the couch and opened it. I had feared to do this for so long. I tested Brent, "Hey, r u up?"

He responded seconds later, 

(BOLD = BRENT, NORMAL = ALEX)

Yea, y?

Why did u say that? About me? About my family? About us?

B/c, I... Alex I'm sorry

Bout wat?

Everything

Define everything

Everything

So, you're sorry that u even asked me out? You're sorry I accepted u? You're sorry I tried to make everything in our relationship work out? Is that it??

No, Alex I didn't mean it that way

Then what?

Can we talk about this in person? 

Alex plz

Hear me out

Fine, when?

Now

Where?

At the park I asked you out

Fine

~End of Convo~

I ran upstairs quietly and threw on sweats, tank top, and a sweatshirt. I slipped on my Vans and made my way downstairs. I walked there and ten minutes later I saw a figure sitting on the swings. I walk over to them and sit on the other it feels as though as years since I've see him. My heart slightly beats a little faster. He looks at me, bags under his eyes and his beautiful facial expressions being softly touched by his flawless brown hair. He grabbed me and hugged me so tight. I was startled at first and tensed up. I waited until he would let go but, he didn't. I was just standing there in a park, at 3 in the morning being embraced by my ex.

A moment later I feel wetsubstance drops spatter my neck where his neck was buried. He sobbed, "please hug me back" he pleaded. "Put your arms around me, and tell me everthings ok" I instantly soften. I am put at ease when I realized he was crying into the crook of my shoulder. I wrapped my arms around him instantly. He cried into my shoulder and I stood their holding him like he was my child. Well, despite our seven inch difference. He was still sobbed and I cooed some comforting words into his perfect ear.

I teared up thinking why he was having a melt down. I was sitting holding Brent in my lap. I was the one being strong now. I was the one to bring comfort. I was the savior. I was the one to look up to. 

Like an hour later we were back on the swings. He kept apologizing for everything. I accepted each and everyone. He was truthfully sorry. I believed him and apologized for yelling him. He asked if we were still a thing. 

I shook my head and said,"I'm sorry Brent, I...I just can't. After what you put me through I can't" his eyebrows furrowed and he argued, "I just apologized though!" I looked at him in astonishment both at his tone and sudden increase in volume. I got up and started to back away. He came towards me. He walked after me and I said, "Brent, I...I...I have to go-" And he jumped on the slide practically towering over me. His eyes were red from tearing up and he probably smoked a doobie before coming here. I looked around and saw the sidewalk that led to my house. I looked up at him and suddenly sprinted home. I heard him growl and come after me. I was so scared as my feet pounded against the pavement and my shaky legs carried me home. I have to admit him being 5'10" and me 5'3", I mean yeah I'm gonna be scared.

 I have no idea why he was so pissed. I declined and he turns into a bad boy. I was running as fast as I could and a few meters from my street. I made my way through yards. I skillfully jumped fences. I didn't turn around once knowing I would trip or run into something only to slow me down. I kept jumping fences and jumped up on a branch on the big cherry tree that we have in front. I desperately tried blending my coat and top of my head into the thick branches. I watched him enter the property. He went up to the front door. He pulled out his phone and lit up the screen. He turned his back on me and most likely texted me. I got out of the tree and ran to the back yard. To the door I left unlocked, my back door. I quickly slid inside and went upstairs. I wasn't tired at 5 in the morning and decided to go on Netflix. I was about to start Mean Girls when Caitlyn came in my room scared. She said Brent was on her balcony knocking on the window and looking inside. I closed my appropriate her to hide in my shower. She obeyed and quickly disappeared. I woke up everyone else except Eric Adrian hid with Caitlyn and I texted Brent to leave my property or I would call the cops. He responded, "Oohh just you wait Alex" I shuddered and we all camped out in Justin's room because he was the only one without a balcony. We locked all of the doors and windows. After did a sweep and closed all of the curtains and blinds. I eventually felt sleepy and played on the floor near Caitlyn and felt something plop down beside me. I opened my eyes to see Boots getting ready to sleep. I nestled down and cuddled with him letting sleep over take me.