Going Down With A Fight

~Chapter 23~

~A few weeks later~

I woke up and decided to film. I got up, showered, and changed into a large grey sweater with a black heart in the center, leggings, and knee high black combat boots.  I brushed my hair and put in am head band and pushed my hair out of my face. 

I grabbed my guitar and started strumming until I found a tune I like. It was "Kiss It Better" by He Is We. (The inspirational song above) 

"He sits in his cell,

And he lays on his bed.
Covers his head and closes his eyes.
He sees a smoking gun,
And the coward he ran.
And in his arms is the bleeding
Love of his life.

And she cried,
"Kiss it all better,
I'm not ready to go.
It's not your fault, love,
You didn't know, you didn't know."

Her hands are so cold,
And he kisses her face
And says, "Everything will be all right."
He noticed the gun,
And his rage grew inside.
He said, "I'll avenge my lover tonight".

And she cried,
"Kiss it all better,
I'm not ready to go.
It's not your fault love,
You didn't know, you didn't know."

Now he sits behind prison bars,
25 to life and she's not in his arms.
He couldn't bring her back with a bullet to the heart
In the back of a man who tore his world apart.

He holds on to her memory,
All it is, is a memory.
Hey, hey.

He cries,
Stay with me until I fall asleep,
Stay with me.
Please stay with me until I fall asleep,
Stay with me.
Stay with me until I fall asleep,
Stay with me.
Stay with me until I fall asleep,
Stay with me.

Kiss it all better,
I'm not ready to go.
It's not your fault love,
You didn't know, you didn't know.

(Kiss it all better.)
Stay with me until I fall asleep,
Stay with me.
Stay with me until i fall asleep,
Stay with me.
(kiss it all better.)
Stay with me until I fall asleep,
Stay with me.
Stay with me until I fall asleep,
Stay with me."

I edited it and posted it. I texted Brent asking him what he wanted to do today and he said to come pick him up. I grabbed $60 and told Eric I was going out with Brent. He smirked at me and I blushed leaving. I walked down to his house and was attacked by Lexi hugging me. She squeezed tighter when I wrapped my arms around her. She reminded me so much of Caitlyn. Funny. I waited as Brent came down in a flannel, khaki pants, and black vans. Of course he had a black snapback on to. I kissed him hello and we left. We went to Starbucks to get Pumpkin Spice Lattes. We talked more and went down to the park where he asked me out. I smiled at the memory. I side hugged him as we walked and he snuck his arm around my waist, I was texting Mahogany knowing that the next tour was to Canada. We were going to Torrento, Shawn's hometown. We were gonna perform there.

I spent the rest of the night with Brent. I borrowed some of Lexi's clothes since she was literally my size. We snuggled in bed and watched Titanic together. "Hey Brent?" "Mhhmmm" "Would you stay with me if we were on the Titanic?" "Yeah babe, I would never leave you in the middle of the ocean, as long as you make room for me on our own raft!" He started tickling me. I laughed so hard I snorted causing Brent to laugh even harder. "Brent stop! I'm gonna puke!" He thought for a second and responded. "Only if you tell me that, you have  the best boyfriend this world will ever see on Earth."  I didn't say anything until he started up again, "OK, STT-OPP, SO I CAN SPEAK! HAHA!" He was hesitant at first and I flipped us over to where I was on top. I kissed him and stood up to "stretch" I said, "Uh huh, in your dreams baby!" I took off running downstairs. On the way I slipped and butt-scooted down the stairs. 

I was laughing, Brent was watching in awe and was laughing like there was no tomorrow. Just than a blonde teen came into the house she called out to Brent and said, "Hey Brent I want to tell you something. Babe? Brent?" I stopped on the landing and my smile immediately disappeared along with my laughter. She called again, Brent didn't respond. I looked for him and saw him on his tablet. He was talking to someone. He said these exact words, "Sorry babe, I'm sick and my friend Justin is over maybe later. My heart shattered. "Okay, I can't exactly go home right now. Could I maybe stay here?" I watched him from the hallway. "Fine Leigh, but I'm coming down in a little bit. I have to take some medicine. Bye babe" He waved quickly. "Bye baby, can't wait to see you. Tomorrow is our one month anniversary!" I was pissed. I walked in normally and said, "Hey, what happened?" He looked up and smoothed out his shirt. "Nothing babe, just a business call." I nodded and went to change. "What are you doing?" He asked. "Going to go out, I need some air." I walked downstairs and saw the worst thing in the world. It was the blonde naked on his sofa. She didn't look up and said, "It's about time Brent!" In a squeaky, high pitched, annoying voice. I said back, "Who are you? What are you doing here? Oh, and I'm not Brent." She looked up surprised and covered herself up. She was scared and posses at the same time. 

"Brent! Who is this at the bottom of the stairs?" She yelled her voice squeaky. Brent came down and saw us. I was by the door, she was on the sofa, and both looking at him. "Brent? I thought you said Justin was over! Not another woman!" She whined. "My heart pounded and I felt my eyes sting. I looked at her and than him. "Brent?" He looked at me. "How could you?" My voice cracked, signalling my tears were coming. I looked at the blonde and said, "I am so sorry miss." She was shocked more than anything. I looked at Brent who looked willingly at me. "Brent...we're done." He looked up guilt filling his eyes and I swung open the door. I ran out into the chilly night and walked home. I ran up to my room and cried. I cried for hours. I turned off my phone knowing he would try to text me. I threw my phone into a box, closed the box, and threw that on top of the shelf in my closet. I went into the bathroom and brought out my razor. I sliced my skin repeatedly until my arms could hold no more. I cleaned them and passed out on my bed.