Love| a Joe Sugg fanfic

Alternative 4

A couple of days had gone by since I said yes to Jack, and those couple of days included a lot of sad looks from Joe. he looked hurt, and it made me feel terrible. but i mean, my life and its whatever makes me happy, right? i rolled out of bed at 11am, nice lie in for the day, i thought. i pulled on a large sweater, which coincidently was Jack's, he'd left it here. i tugged on black skinny jeans and put my doc martin's on, which - might i add - are the most gorgeous day shoes i own. i didn't eat anything, wasn't hungry, but instead i went across the hall. i knocked on the door three times. the door swung open to reveal Joe, who looked exhausted, bags hanging under his eyes, hair a mess, tear stains down his face. this wasn't the Joe i wanted to see. "Oh. Hi Amber." he muttered. "want to come in."

"yeah, i want to come in and talk to you. Caspar here?" i asked.

"no." joe replied , avoiding my eyes, face and body. i walked in, straight past Joe and towards his room. i sat on his bed, crossed legged and waited for Joe to come down. the room was as much as a mess as Joe was. rubbish was scattered around the room, clothes everywhere too. he came in slowly and closed the door. "sorry about the mess. what did you want to talk about?" he said quietly once again.

"you. i want to talk about you. I'm worried. Joe look at you. you're a mess. what's wrong?"

"im not a mess. I'm broken. I'm heartbroken,because i fell to quickly for i girl i hadn't seen in years. i was thinking 'how long does it have to be to ask her out' but i was too late. a random guy got her before me and she looks happy," he took a sharp breath in, new tears forming, "while I'm dying inside." tears streamed down his face and he pulled his knee's up to his face as he curled up into a ball on the bed. 

"is that girl me by any chance?" i asked him, quietly feeling his pain too.

"yes. its you. there i said it." he said sitting up and looking at me. he held onto my hands. "please, don't break me anymore."

"i didn't realise. Joe I'm sorry." i got up and left.

"where are you going?" he asked.

"i have to go, i hate seeing you like this and it's making me feel super guilty." i left the apartment as quickly as possible. i ran my hand through my hair, once id reached the top of the stairs caspar opened the door. 

"amber?"

"hi." i said quietly.

"he's hurting because of you. please make him smile for me."

"i'll try, but i can't guarantee anything." i looked down at my hands.

"please." i looked up at caspar and he looked sad too. i closed my eyes tight as i could feel tears forming in my eyes. i hated seeing Joe like this and i hated seeing Caspar like this. there was only one thing i could do. end things with Jack - even though we only just became a couple. i couldn't be with someone if it hurt my close friends. i wondered along the streets of London, heading towards Jack's house. once i reached the house i knocked on the door twice. and then i waited. Jack came running to the door, all sweaty and only wearing a robe. 

"Amber? W-What are you doing here?" he panicked. i caught him cheating. i knew it and i still couldn't quite believe it. 

"I'm here to break up. at first it was for the happiness of my friend - who has cried since i said yes, now its for me. you're just a cheating asshole. i shouldn't have said yes." i stormed away, new tears streaming down my face. i pulled out my phone and texted joe. 

to: Joeeeeee

sent 14:57

we broke up. he's a cheating bastard. I'm coming over. clean yourself and your room up, we're watching movies all day and eating ice cream.

i power walked to my apartment and cried for a bit. i then realised that i should be heading over to Joe's. i knocked on the door three times, and a very different Joe answered the door. he still looking tired, but he was actually smiling, he had clean clothes on and he looked a bit better than before. "before you ask, my room's clean and there is ice cream down there as well as three films: mean girls, clueless and the princess diaries." i smiled and then walked forward and wrapped my arms around Joe.

"you are honestly the best man i've ever met." i felt his arms wrap around me and felt his head rest on top of mine.

"all of it is for the best girl i've ever met." i felt him place a long slow kiss on my forehead. i looked up at him. 

"lets go down and watch the movies now." i smiled slightly, but a tear fell down my face. he wiped it away.

"sure thing sweet pea."