Deprived of His Love

Chapter 6:

Hello! Enjoy my loves Xx

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I wake up and dred going to cheer practice today. I wear my Peyton bow that I have. We both made them but hers said Ella and they said BFF'S on it. Cheesy I know but right now I absolutley love it. My is neon pink with blue letters and hers was blue with pink letters. So I wore a neon pink sports bra and blue nike pros. I got my bag and headed out. This is harder than I imagined.

Once I walked in everyone came up and hugged me. Yes it was very hard for them because they lost what was a sister to them also. But they all knew our friendship and knew how tough this is for me. I sat down and started stretching. I was silent. I was just waiting to see Peyton run in the gym laughing and saying sorry for being late. I was waiting for her to come sit by me, matching as always. I was waiting for her to come back. I would give up cheer forever to be with her for 10 minutes. I start to think about what cheering at NCA will be like without her. I won't be able to get a picture with her of us wearing our NCA jackets. What about the Majors? Or Worlds? Or any other competition. Why am I even doing this without her?

Suddenly I fall. Blackout completley and wake up. I hear Peyton's voice. She is yelling "Ella, Ella, Ella are you okay? you fell from a basket toss. I open my eyes and see Peyton's face and I hug her. I didnt let go. She smiled and said "What are you doing?" I said "You know how much I love you right? You are my absolute bestfriend!" She replied "Yes, Ella I love you too you are my bestfriend." Just as she said that I wake up to my whole team staring at me on the ground.

No. It was just a dream. She is not here. Why? Why can't she just be here?

I went from sad to mad in the blink of an eye.

Practice is over and I rush home. Ryan is on the couch and I immediatley say "we need to talk" in the most firm voice. "okay?" he replies in confusion. "I am tired of this every night sex thing. I feel like you just want me for that. I mean we barely talk in the daytime!" I say raging in anger. He immediatley fires back with " No, you are wrong actually. I like you a lot Ella! If you didnt want to do it you had to just tell me! Well let me change that, I LIKED you. I just realized how much of an assuming bitch you are. " My mouth dropped. I fire back 10x harder "Oh now I am a bitch? For what telling you my feelings? I am not assuming anything I am stating the facts. Why did I even fall into your little trap? I knew you would leave me sooner or later. I wouldn't have been suprised. You are such an inconsiderate asshole you know that? It is always Ryan Ryan Ryan, you are so selfish I hate it. Matter of fact I didnt even know I could hate someone in a matter of a minute but I guess I have living proof when it comes to you. Goodbye Ryan" and I throw down his bag and push his ass out of the door. Calling me a bitch who does he think he is? I am never going back to him no matter how hard he tries. I pick up the phone and call Peyton. Then all I hear is " We're sorry this phone has been disconnec..." I hang up before it could finish. Then I just bawl my eyes out. All this is happening at once. Why me?

I walk in the bathroom and completley space what time of the month it is. Damn...I need tampons. So I run to Wal-Mart.Ugh it is closed. Looks like I have to go to the one in the next town.So it takes about 30 minutes to get there and I finally arrive. I get out and walk in. I am walking through the isles and I see a girl with Peyton's exact blonde hair. I gotta stop with this. The girl turns around and I see it is Peyton. My eyes are playing tricks on me. This is crazy, she is dead. Isn't she? I mean they said her body couldn't be recovered because they thought she flew into the river by the crash. Then the craziest thing I have ever seen happens. Her boyfriend who she was driving in the car with at the time of the wreck comes up and hugs her. What is going on? I run up there and say "Peyton?" and she turns around...

"Ella?" she says in the most innocent look. "You-you aren't dead?" I say in confusion. "No I am not. But Eric didn't want to be blamed for the crash so he took me. And made me hide here. I can't do this anymore Ella...I want my mom." She starts crying. I see Eric is walking in the bathroom. So I say "Peyton come with me now. I am taking you home" She nods and runs with me.Screw tampons I think I have one in my car and I'll go to the gas station in town. Once Peyton is safe. I am beyond happy that she is not dead. I cry the whole way home in tears of joy. "Peyton, you don't realize how much I am glad you are not dead.As weird as that may sound." "I am so glad you found me.I thought I was going to die." she explains.

We pull up to her house. "You okay to go in by yourself?" I ask. "No" she says. So i nod and get out of the car and I knock on the door. "Hey Ella..." her mom answers. "Mrs. Clark. Peyton is not dead. She is here with me." I push Peyton into her moms arms. "PEYTON! oh my god. What you're not dead? Where were you then?" she says as she hugs her. "Eric.He took me so he wouldn't get the blame of the car wreck. Then Ella saw me at Wal-Mart and she brought me home." She says. "Oh by the way do you have tampons here?" I say to Peyton. "Yes in the cabinet below the sink in my bathroom." she says laughing. I run up and get them and head back down and see Peytons family squeezing her and crying. It was truly beautiful.

We had cheer the next day so we were so excited. We matched of course. In neon pink nike pros, a plain white sports bra, and our hair in a ponytail with a poof and a bow that was cheetah print. It was glad to have her back.

I called everyone and informed them Peyton is alive. So many people were extatic.

Then I called Ryan. It has been 5 days. He answers "Hello?" I reply "Hey...I just wanted to tell you Peyton is alive...Eric just hid her and faked her death so he wouldnt get blamed for the car accident since she was driving." He answers "Well thats good. Can we go out to dinner tomorrow at eight? I wanna talk." I reply with "That sounds good." "Alright see you then.Bye" he says. "Bye" I say as he hangs up.

I am so scared for tomorrow night at 8.