Skater Love

Chapter 8

Nerf

I decide to ignore Nerf's text message. I really am in no mood to even talk to him. Plus what's there to explain? If he's really gonna think I'm gonna believe his lies, he's wrong. It just hurt me that he kissed me last night (even though it was a dare) and the next day his girlfriend comes out of no where. Wait. Why should I care about him sort of 'two timing'? I dont like him like that... Do I? Of coarse I do. When he kissed me last night I actually stared into his eyes and explained every single perfect detail of him.But I can't be this caught up on him. Especially if I just met him. Though, he has this great side of him! He skateboards and shares same interests as me. There's not that much boys. Usually they would play basketball or football and treats you like meat or garbage and end up going out with you just for the sex. Trust me, that happened to me a lot. 

Last year in 8th grade I dated this boy named Fred. He was kind of a jock and know to be a 'player' around the school and I was stupid enough not to believe it. He was into sports like football and basketball. One day, we were at a park and we made out in the living room. That's when he pulled me upstairs to my room to lay me on my bed. 

" C'mon babe. Lets do it." He said winking at me. At first I thought he was joking around until he unzipped my pants.

"What are you doing?!?" I shouted.

He litarley just stood there giving me a 'are-you-stupid' look. He got really mad and stomped out of my room and said," Fuck you Zoie. Im done with your stupid games. Its over. And by the way... Perrie is a better kisser than you!" 

After all that I found out he was just dating me for the sex. Also, he was cheating on me for this one girl named Perrie who was the 'popular' girl in school but others said she's just a whore. I guess Fred and Perrie had some things in common. It broke my heart to hear what he said and actually find out the reason behind our relationship. I was happy though that I got over him oddly quickly. Usually, with my other ex's, it was a whole different story. Thinking about my past and everything about boys just makes me hate them more. No wonder why my best friend Rachel sticked to just being lesbian. Lets face it, SOME guys are just all the same. Some arn't though. So I really don't blame Rachel.

I lay down in bed, hearing my phone ring like about 20 times. Probably Nerf trying to "explain". I really don't have time for him. I need some time to think things through...

Nerf's POV

I called her. I texted her. I tried my best to try and explain what really happened. But I'm wondering, why would she be so hurt by this. Even though Cookie isnt my girlfriend, why would she be hurt to the fact that i "have a girlfriend". What if she feels the same way as me? All these question's running through my head just gives me a headache. I never meant to hurt Zoie. I have feelings for her. Strong feelings. Even though we just met like 2 days ago. Doesn't matter! *Beep,beep* It's my phone...

Zoie's POV

Me:What do u want

Nerf: i want to explain what rlly happen and u shold listen to my side of the story plz

me:i dont think i have time for 'players'

Nerf: just listen to me plz. here ill call and explain plz

me: whatever but im not going to believe your lies nerf...

Wow... What he explained on the phone was probably true. I guess that girl Cookie or whatever the hell her name is just did that to make me mad and jealous. My god, I feel like such a fool. Im such an idiot for accusing Nerf for something like. Now I feel like I can trust him more than any other guy which is good. Man, I really wanna hug Nerf right now. I don't know why but I have this sudden urge to. I do like him a lot I guess but he probably doesn't like me back. I mean, look at me! What is special about me? I don't have a good looking body, my nose is deformed, my eyes are just boring brown, and Im not a model type. Im Zoie. Zoie is a girl who loves skateboarding, gets good grades, and doesn't usually get the guys. What kind of guy would be interested in me?

I am so insecure about myself. Especially what happened in 8th grade when like most of the guys would call me ugly,fat,worthless,and a slut. I actually believe them. I don't know why. I wish I can be those type of girls that are strong and not so insecure and wouldn't listen to what other people say. Why can't I be like that? For a moment, I think to myself: Nerf makes me happy. Whenever I see him he makes me smile. A real smile actually lights up my face. For a moment, I wouldn't care what I do when I'm with him. And that kiss... That kiss made everything about him seem so different. It made him seem like a good guy.

Zoie, STOP IT! I really got to stop thinking about Nerf. He doesn't give a shit about me. 

Nerf: Im glad were friends again:)

Me: me too. look im sorry bout how I acted :/

Nerf: its all good. its actually my fault but anyways we should hang tomoro :)

me: sure, this time i won act all crazy lol again sorry :/

Nerf:haha ok and dont be :) anyways, night gorgouse <3 see you tomoro love :)

I can feel my face burning up! My heart is beating really fast for no apparent reason. Is this what 'love' really does to you?