Love And Pain {Jacquees}

Chapter 12

Ming Lynn's Pov:

I Woke Up With The Sun Shining Into The Room. I Looked Over And Que Wasn't In Bed. I Walked Up To The Steps And Stopped When I Heard Him Talking.

"For Real Nia You Need To Go" He Said.

"What, You Got Another Bitch In The House."

"Nia We're Not Together, You Need To Go"

"Just Tell Me, Is She Here Or No."

I Decided To Walk Downstairs And To Wear Que And The Girl Were.

"Jacquees." I Said.

They Both Looked At Me.

"This Yo Girl?" She Said With An Attitude.

He Looked At Me And I Smirk Before Lightly Nodding.

He Looked At Her And Said "Matter Of Fact, She Is."

I Walked Up To Him And Wrapped My Arms Around Him From Behind, Nuzzling My Nose Into His Back A Little.

"You Know What Que," The Girl Said. "Fuck You!"

She Left Slamming The Door Hard. I Ran To The Door And Opened And As She Was Walked To Her Car I Yelled Out "And Don't Come Back Either Biiiitch!" Before Laughing.

Que Came Up Behind Me And Closed The Door Before Bussing Out Laughing.

"Why Would You Do That" He Said Between Laughs.

"I Had To Play My Part And You're Welcome."

"Well Thank You My Dear."

"Who Was That Anyways"

"A Girl I Was In A Relationship With For About 2 Months. I Told Her That I Was In Love With Someone Else."

"Really, Who?"

"That's For Me To Know, And For You To Find Out. I Mean I've Been In Love With This Girl Forever And I'm Pretty Sure She Has Feeling For Me Too"

"Oh" I Said Looking At My Feet, Kind Of Sad.

"Damn Girl, Are You Really That Clueless."

I Looked Up At Him A Confused Facial Expression. "What."

"I'm Talking About You Ming. I'm In Love You, Always Have Been."

"Are You Serious?"

He Nodded And After He Did I Hit Him As Hard As I Could In His Chest. He Looked At Me, Confused.

"What Was That For?" He Asked.

"For Not Telling Me Until Now. Do You Know How Long I've Waited To Hear You Say Something Like That."

He Chuckled. "Really?"

"Yeah."

It Got Really Quiet For A Second. I Looked Up At Him.

"So What Does This Mean" I Asked Him.

"What Do You Want It To Mean."

"I Don't Know, Are We..Together."

He Grabbed Me By My Waist And Pulled Me Close. "Yeah, I Guess We Are."

I Blush A Little Before Thinking About Something.

"What Time Is It." I Asked

He Looked At His Phone "7:45"

"O.m.g I'm Late For Work!"

I Ran Upstairs Grabbing My Stuff And Ran Back Downstairs. I Put On My Shoes In A Hurry. Good Thing Is, Que Doesn't Live That Far From Me, So I Can Go Home And Get Ready For Work Without Taking Up Too Much Time.

As I Ran Out I Heard Que Yell "Damn, No Hug Or Nothing."

"I'll See Yo Black Ass Later, Shut Up" I Said As I Hopped In My Car.

He Sent Me A Message Saying "You Just Hurt My Feelings"

I Laughed Before Sending Him A Message Back Saying " You'll Get Over It."

I Got Home, Freshened Up And Got To Work As Quick As I Could. As I Walked Into The Back My Supervisor Walked Up To Me.

"How's Your Family" He Asked.

"What...Oh, They'll Be Fine"

"Good, I Have Them In My Prayers"

"Thanks" I Said Before Walking To The Front, And Getting To My Register.

After Work I Called June To See How Everything Was Going. Tony Took The Phone And Playfully Cussed Me Out Before Hanging Up. All I Could Do Was Laugh.

When I Got Home Mai Was Sitting In The Living Room Watching TV. She Looked At Me And Stared For A Few Minutes.

"Oh You Not With Que." She Teased.

"No, Im Not With Que" I Said Mocking Her In Her Korean Accent.

"Where Your Friend June."

"Jamaica"

"What She Doing In Jamaica."

"She's With Her Little Boo Thang."

"Oh."

I Ran Upstairs And Plopped Down On My Bed. I Wasn't Really Tired But My Bed Felt So Good. In A Matter Of Minutes I Was Knocked Out.

I Woke Up When I Felt Something Heavy On Me. It Was Que, He WS Laying On Me, On His Back.

"Get Up You Beast." I Said Trying To Get Him Off.

He Rolled Off Of Me. I Got Up And Stretched. I Went To The Bathroom And Did My Business. When I Went Back To My Room Que Was Going Through My Notebooks.

I Quickly Walked Over To Him And Closed Them, Taking Them And Throwing Them In The Garbage.

He Looked At Me With Sorrow Filled Eyes.

"Don't Give Me That Look." I Told Him.

"How Can I Not. You Do Realize What I Just Read Right?"

"Yeah, And I'd Rather Not Talk About It."

"Ming-"

"Jacquees Please."

"Why. How Could You Even Think Of Something Like That."

"Que." I Said Softly As Tears Began To Run Down My Face.

He Grabbed Both Of My Wrist And Stared Down At The Healing Cuts. I Hung My Head, Ashamed As More Tears Streamed Down My Face. He Pulled Me I to His Arms And Held Me Tight.

~Ming's Notebook Entries~

September 15, 2014

He's Gone. I Don't Know Where But He Is. My Heart Is Broken. I Was Literally Snatched Away From Me. I Can't Stop Crying.

November 6, 2014

I Am Completely Miserable Without Him And Now Me And Mai Are Moving. I Don't Want To Leave. What If He Comes Back And Can't Find Me.

February 21, 2015

I Can't Stop Harming Myself Now. I've Tried To Stop. Every Night I Find Myself Crying. I've Counted 6 Scars On Each Wrist. They're Healing But I Can't Stop Myself From Wanting To Do It More.

April 2, 2015

I Don't Understand Why I Am Even Still Living Right Now. I Walk Around Like A Zombie Most Of The Time Wishing I Was Dead. Maybe I Should Make That Happen. I Mean He's In Heaven Right, I Should Be There With Him. I Should Be Dead Right Now.
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