Just A Borrowed Spouse

The Letter

Naeun's POV:

Finally,the letter was now before my very eyes. It lay still on the bed right in front of me somehow waiting to be opened. I can't help but sigh, I waited for this for a long time. I had no idea of its existence until Taemin reminded me of it. He really is a romantic type, the one read in fairytales.

Silence filled the room but my insides were screaming to open the letter. I couldn't help but hesitate in opening it but I have to. I have to know what he wrote.

I finally grabbed the letter and slowly opened it. The envelope was now torn from its letter. I felt the familiar texture of the paper and it reminded me of that day.

"Okay Naeun.This is it." - I sighed as I slowly unfolded the letter.

My eyes now darted to read the letter.

"To my wife, Naeun.
     
This day has started so unexpectedly, just like the way you came to my life.

I didn't know it the moment we got married,not even when we started going out while filming that you happend to be my first love.

To me,you were my love and that was enough for me because you made me happy. You are the only person who would listen to me talk and talk for hours about the plans I have for us, for the future and even the places we would go together someday. I will cherish the things we did and all the other things we would be doing in the future. I really am thankful that you were my wife, I wouldn't have experience these things without you.

For some reason, I knew you were special and now I know why; that is because of the memories I will be making with you.You were the only girl who would be brave enough to do extremes with me. You were even better than I was but I knew and by that I was sure that fate brought us together.

By the next year, I know even if I wanted to read this myself to you that wouldn't happen because this virtual marriage wasn't meant to last long but I know by that time I wouldn't get over you.

A year later of my wife, Son Naeun. Your pretty heart and bright smile like now. I hope you show them to me a lot now too.

Well I hope that I would manage the life without you but even just by now the thoughts of that just doesn't seem right. How can that be? Because even now, whenever I get home after long periods of practice and recordings thoughts of you and I never stop haunting me. I don't cry at the thought of you but I always find my way back to you- thinking about, what if we were "for real?" . A million what if's that occupy my mind all through the night.

By now, I don't know what I should say. All I know is that I always feel happy whenever you're around me. Maybe it's because I really do like you. I know we get teases from members and others but I think those teases aren't so bad. I like the way how your name is said with mine. It's as if you were really mine.

Now I know why people have first loves and I was certain that you were mine.
I know one's first love isn't the one you have liked, not the one who broke your heart first and not even the first person who you had a relationship with. It was the person who left a deep mark on you.

A mark so deep that would want you to change as a better person.

That's how you make me feel.

But now as I write this letter, words just aren't enough to express everything. You know how my actions speak, I hope you see me right through them. I know that I cry less than any of my members but maybe one day you would make me cry, I know you would.