Hey guys. Sorry I haven't been updating recently. Things have just been chaotic as shit with school and all. (9th grade is a bitch)
But I'm here to talk about something else... Something more... Personal, that I'm sure many of you have gone through with. I'm gonna let you take a wild guess before telling you
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If you guessed self harm... You were correct.
Many, many people have either self harmed, or thought of it. Sadly, I'm one of them. And let me tell you, it is NOT worth it in the least. Having the horrible feeling of family members finding out. Having to hear them ask you.... "Why?"
But for those of us who have self harmed... Our answer is stress. Depression. Just life in fucking general. And when they ask us why we didn't talk to them? We tell them that they wouldn't understand.
Some people burn themselves, some people strike themselves. But I'm one of the ones who cuts. I feel that it's the most effective way to get the sensation of calmness. But again.... It's not worth it. Because I found myself addicted to it. I did it every night. Sometimes in the morning. I used a pair of scissors I had in my room. They were the sharpest thing I had. They drew blood. And I felt a rush of.... Calmness. Calmness that engulfed my body... So I kept doing it. And doing it. Until my friends found out... They helped me realize what I was doing to myself.
That was 4 months ago. I've only done it once or twice since then. I'm kinda proud of myself.
But I want you guys to know I'm here for you. I always will be.
But anyway, sorry for that. I promise I'll get back to the story soon.
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Sebaciel- The Whisper
FanfictionCiel has feelings for his butler, Sebastian, who has feelings for Ciel as well. will they ever tell each other? or will their feelings stay shrouded in darkness?
