Sebaciel- The Whisper

Fear

Yep, I'm updating. *claps* but anyway, sorry for all the long waits. School is a piece of stressful shit that can just burn in hell for all I care. (Sorry girl problems)

But anyway, here you go. I know some of you want yaoi stuff... But you need to wait. It was wierd to just have yaoi so cut me some slack here. There'll be some soon. Don't you worry.
OH OH OH! But do you guys know who that is in the picture? If you do.... Say in the comments!! (Hint; he's squishy!!)
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Ciel's p.o.v.
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I hurt so much... Everywhere... It felt like days had passed. Days filled with torture and pain.

New scars covered the old ones. The skin on my back was practically gone. Chains and ropes dug into the flesh of my arms and legs. It made my skin raw.

I tried not to scream but.... I couldn't help it.

Every time that damn whip cracked on my body gave me a wave of pure agony. I couldn't hold the cries back. Every time that whip cracked on my back the memories of what happened to me four years ago came flooding into my head. It was all so similar... And all I could do was scream to try and get the memories to leave..

I wanted them to stop. I wanted the screams to stop.

All they gained me was evil laughter from Claude.

He's so evil. Why would he do this to me....? Why is he going after me...?

For revenge of some sort...? Revenge on me? Sebastian? Is he trying to get to Sebastian by using me...?

If he is..... I can't let Claude hurt him...

I love him.... And what I did was too much... I shouldn't have exploded at him like that... I shouldn't have ran off.

If I would've stayed...

This wouldn't have happened.

It's all my fault. I'm going to die... Claude's going to get to Sebastian... And he's going to kill him....

And it's all my fault.

What's wrong with me?

Why am I like this...?

Why do I let my emotions get the best of me? Why do I let them engulf me in darkness?

Bottomless darkness....

Sebastian had reached for me... Pulled me out of the darkness... He actually made me smile. Genuinely smile.

Then.... Just like that.... I slipped and fell right back in. And I can see the light gradually get farther and farther as I slip away.
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What do I do...?

Stay alive and be happy? Make Sebastian happy? Risk getting taken by Claude again?

Or do I let myself die? Die like I deserve to? Finally see my parents again?

Either outcome will end in the death of Sebastian in some way.

Damn it all....

I hate choices. But, who doesn't, right? I'm sure there are so many people that have to face much more than I do, right? People who have choices that are much harder than this?

Much more complex?

Maybe.
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Okay, I know this is kinda short and crappy. But I tried. And do you guys like my writing style? Like, the way I skip lines for some thoughts and crap? Cuz I kinda can't help it. But if you don't, I can stop. You just need to let me know. Anyway, yeah. Thanks for almost 2k reads!!