i'd rather be in neverland (a janoskians fanfic)-discontinued

chapter 8

So here I sit at the dinner table on Wednesday night with my father and his portable whore named chalk or some shit of that sort. I guess that’s her name for now I really liked portable whore but its too hard to say so chalk it is.

“so how’s school” my dad says trying to make conversation which may I add he is failing miserably because no one wants to talk to his bitch ass 

“ like unicorns and rainbows, oh and I had a project were I got to color yay” I say sarcastically and to add emphasis I jumped up and down in my chair. My mom glares at me but you can see humor in her eyes like she wants to laugh but she wont.

“well carmine here does fashion ” he say ignoring my comment and that’s her name too bad im still calling her chalk whoops 

“yeah im the girl that they fit the clothes on before it goes out” she say confidently, oh shit she talks 

“wow that’s wonderful” my mom says with a fake smile on her face 

I stare at my food pushing it around my plate with one question roaming my mind like it has been all day “so why are you really here?” I ask my dad trying to sound confident (which I probably failed at but who cares) I take a sip of my drink as I wait for my answer

“ well I thought maybe you could come back with me to Arizona” I start having a choking attack 

“WHAT?!?!” 

“yea I wanted to spend time with you now that I have myself together”

Now im angry I cant help but say what’s on my mind because at this point I really don’t give a fuck 

“ are you fucking serious you should have thought of that six years ago when you left us for this slut” I say pointing at chalk 

“ENOUGH” my mother booms obviously aggravated 

“whatever” I say grabbing my sweater and walking out of the door at first I wander and then somehow I end up at Lindsay’s front door. I knock and her mother answers “where’s Lindsay” I say my voice cracking I don’t know why im about to cry I just know that I need to “ she went to see jai why baby what’s wrong?” Lindsay’s mom was always like a second mom to me and I would never lie to her but im in a hurry I need to find Lindsay now “you’ll find out soon enough” I say running away.

I run and run until I get to the brooks household and bang on the door, Luke answers the door and before he can say anything I just breakdown right there he just hugs me and takes e into the house whilst holding me.

Any other time I would push him away and laugh at him but im hurt. The only thing in my mind at this moment is memories I cant remember what is reality but I remember every thing from the first time My dad screamed at my mom, to when it turned into hitting. I even remember when he walked through the door and told me he’ll be back for me, I never thought It was going to be six years later. This makes me cry harder . I wrap my arms around Luke and just cry as he rubs circles into my back . I calmed down a bit but I refuse to let go of Luke and face all of the questions I just want to scream at my dad he thinks he can just be super dad all of a sudden, it doesn’t fucking work like that. 

“ do you wanna sit down babe?” Luke says I just look up at him and nod my head. I let him go and walk over to the couch. Luckily everyone is probably in their room or in the dining room but I don’t think much of it. I just sit on the couch silent tears still steaming down my face  Luke kneels down I front of me 

“do you want to talk about it?” his voice is so calming but I still cant speak so I shake my head and hug him. I don’t know what’s with me and affection right now but I just need a really good hug. He wraps his arms around me when I hear foot steps. Damnit. 

“ooo were we interrupting”  beau obviously doesn’t know what was going on . I let luke go and turn to the and Lindsay punches beau in the arm. Hard. I just chuckle an wipe my eyes as luke gets up looking angry.im not sure why he would be angry.Lindsay then attacked me in a giant hug almost making us topple over.

“are you okay love?” she whisper into my ear. I just nod and tell her I have news later she gives me an encouraging smile and get off of me. I get attacked with billions of questions from all boys except Luke, I respond to every question the same I simply say “ I don’t want to talk about it” but the questions keep coming jai stops asking because Lindsay goes off with him “SHE SAID SHE DOESN’T WANT TO FUCKING TALK ABOUT IT JESUS” Luke says surprising us all but everyone stops and Luke grabs my wrist and drags me into his room. As soon as I get into his room I burst into a fit of laughter I don’t know why but I just do, I end up giggling while sitting on Luke’s floor he just looks like I’ve gone mad. Maybe I have but in this moment with him looking at me I think I’ve gone mad for every little thing he does to me its perfect and I don’t know why maybe ill get over it. I walk over to his bed and sit next to him and take out my phone which I instantly regret because  have 7 missed calls, 4 fro the house phone, and 3 from an unknown (which im guessing is my dad). But Luke takes the phone from me and starts searching for something on my phone. I just lay back and watch him he clicks something and let her go by passenger starts playing I just sigh out loud and close my eyes. We sit there just listening and talking about music until my phone rings “ you might want to pick it up I think you have to face whatever you facing now or never” he say encouragingly “ill take never for 300” he just rolls his eyes and answers for me “hello  this is Luke….yes Gina’s son….yeah she’s here….. Yeah I can bring her home for you” he winks at me “ your welcome” and he hangs up “ I fucking hate you so much Luke” I say as I lay back down on the bed “no you don’t” he says winking deep down I know he’s right I don’t hate him but I would never admit it I still cant admit it to myself much less him.

(a/n)

okay i tried to make this longer idk if i succeeded but yea im going to update againt his weekend because i have no social life 

p.s. shout out to my friend carlea she has her own story called trapped it is a harry styles fanfic so check that out 

p.p.s also cheers to lindsay for yelling at me to make the chappies longer c: so thank her and yea i think thats it 

p.p.p.s the song let her go by passenger is to the side and also my new favorite song