i'd rather be in neverland (a janoskians fanfic)-discontinued

chapter 12

You see I don’t do the whole jealously thing,to me its stupid and pointless. Yes, it may irritate me that luke has moved on from me but that cassie girl or whatever her names is, deserves him because shes everything im not, they’re the ideal couple even his fans ‘ship’ them but I cant do anything about it just stay here and hurt because I was a bitch.

I lay on my bed with music blaring and my eyes closed, the music shuts off and I open my eyes that bear my very angry mother.

“what’d you do that for?” I say slightly irritated 

“what the fuck is this” she says handing me a paper. I take it out of her hand before realizing it was my report card I mean im out of school at the moment but we get our cards in the mail. I look over it and I see why im in trouble, my  grades arent the best I admit this is probably the first time I havent gotten at least all B’s. I look at mymom and hand her back the paper with a shit load of F’s and D’s, 

“well what do you have to say about this?” im not sure what to say I did work my butt off I promise

“im sorry I guess..” I try , my mothers face gets red before she screams at me 

“you’re sorry? Aliyah this is unacceptable you can do better, no one likes a stupid girl,no one likes a failure. You can go anywhere in life with these grades aliyah whatever you want to be when you get older you might want to kiss it goodbye because you will never get to be anything being such a disappointment. What you need to do is get off your ass and study, work harder, and for fucks sake take out those goddamn earphones once and a while, you never listen to anyone, do something right in this house a change”

She stops and im staring at her not making a sound but tears rushing down my face, finally I muck enough courage to whisper “ what do you want me to do?” my voice is pain filled 

“I don’t fucking know its probably too late now you slack off way too much okay im already stressed with your father so im done with dealing with your bullshit okay” what she said hit me like a bullet. I can take words from anyone else but from my mom it hurts like hell.

“maybe ill just move in with dad so you wont have to deal with my bullshit” my voice is raised and im still hurting but im also angry. Does she really feel that way?

“do whatever you fucking want aliyah I don’t care ill be more than happy to drive you to the airport” she says walking out and slamming the door, a few seconds later I hear her car start .when I know shes gone I begin to shove stuff into my luggage. Why am I never good enough for anyone? Why cant everyone just be happy I tried my best? Why? Why? Why? I knock over my luggage and throw a picture frame after I hear the shatter of glass I slide down the wall and sob and sob until I fall asleep.

Im woken up by the vibrating of my phone, I don’t even look at the caller ID.

“what?” my voice is raspy and weak from crying earlier 

“well arent you a big ball of sunshine” damnit its luke 

“fuck off what do you want brooks?” I roll onto my back and sigh 

“well ms.grumpy I wanted to know if you can come over I have to talk to you its important” I look at the time, its only 8:15pm

“fine ill be there in ten” I say getting out of bed to put on a sweater

“alright dickface see ya later” I chuckle 

“bye lukey” I hang up and fix my frumpled natural curls and head out. I realize that my mom isn’t home she probably went to her friends house. Memories of what happened earlier flood inti my brain and every word she said replays in my mind.

I knock on the door, Lindsay usually just walksin, but I knock because I don’t walk into anybodys house exepct lindsays no I even knock on her door whatever. 

Beau opens the door “damnit I thought you were pizza even though your better and edible” he says winking 

“you’re disgusting you know that ?” I say chuckling and walk past him 

“ im joking aliyah whats up” he says closing th edoor behind him

“luke told me to coe over because he had talk to me, where exactly is the bitch” 

“upstairs” I then realize none of the boys are here and jai and Lindsay went out somewhere with gina and Lindsay’s mom .

“I shall be back to hang with you because you seem lonely…..theres gonna be one less lonely boy” I sing the last part he just laughs and I walk upstairs.

I walk into lukes room to find him pacing , I grab him by the shoulders “stop fucking pacing you’re making me dizzy” I let go of him and plop down on his bed “so whats up,do you wanna talk about your feelings lukey poo” I stick my bottom lip out and luke just rolls his eyes 

“no I just wanted to get you over here” he said winking and jesus did I melt inside  “awwww your blushing aliyah” he said poking my cheeks 

“fuck off luke what did you really drag me here for?” I say slightly embarrassed that he caught me blush damn you boy for being so damn cute allt he time.

“you’re smiling but you look like you were crying, what happened?” he says completely ignoring my question.

“do I really look that bad without make-up?” I try to lighten up the mood but most importantly make him leave it alone but I not a wizard you know.

“ha ha no you can talk to me, don’t have to tell me now but when you’re ready im here” he  says putting his hand on my shoulder I just sigh because I really like him but he has Cassandra .

“Anyways back to me,I called you here because I don’t know what to do about Cassandra” he sounds stressed out and honestly I cant help him because I really like him but Cassandra deserves him more than me after all I was too late.

“then break up with her..?” I questioned, he was silent for a few seconds

“you know what fuck this” before he could reply I drag him down stairs. I let go of his hand and take a penny board and hand him his “take off your pants” Im trying not to laugh "BEAU HONEY GET YOUR PENNY AND IF YOUR WEARING PANTS TAKE THEM OFF” I scream, I know Lindsay would usually think of some thing like this, but hay that’s why were friends right?

“there is no need to yell okay im right here and what are you going to do? What ever it is I like it already” beau says smiling while luke is still staring at me questioningly 

“okay lets do this shit” I say walking to the front door with both boys following behind, when I get outside I strip to my bra and underwear, I turn to the boys smiling like the Cheshire cat “watch and learn cunts” I whisper before skating down the street screaming. Adrenaline is all I feel oh and breeze,it feels good. Soon im joined by beau then luke. After about 20 minutes of skating up and down the streets it begins to rain. Im fucking freezing my ass off standing at the front door, you know what fuck it I run back out there scream singing boyfriend by Justin bieber, I don’t even like his music, everyone has that song that they know every word to but hate, yea boyfriend is one of those.

“if I was your boyfriend id never let you go” beau joins in we sing the whole song dancing like idiots while luke sits in the drive way watching us.

A car pulls into the drive way and  whose car it is, just my luck, its Cassandra she gets out of the car and stares at us, me being really awkward I give her a giant hug “hello Cassandra we thought you died” I let her go and laugh nervously beau drags me inside leaving Luke and Cassandra alone outside. We get into beaus room and he immediately starts laughing I pretty sure what I did wasn’t that funny , I mean I probably ruined her white t-shirt but its not a big deal right?

(a/n)

ITS REALLY FUCKING SHORT IM SORRY AND ITS ALSO REALLY LATE AGAIN IM SORRY I HAD ALOT GOING ON...WITH CAPS ON I FEEL LIKE IM YELLING. WHY AM I YELLING?

anywhore its summer for me :D you know what that means! MORE FUCKING UPDATES (maybe)

moving on i hope you enjoy this chappie and i love you cunts oh and follow me on twitter @Euginewantsyou  ill buy you an eskimo everyone wants one of those..just me? okay byyyyeee