It'll Never End.

fade.

recently
i've been struggling to keep my head above water.

this journey that i've been on for 5 years
is coming to an end finally.

maybe i'll just

slowly distance myself from them
or
maybe they'll see how bad i'm getting
and
slowly distance themselves from me.

i used to beg for more and more friends, greedy and wanting attention.

now I beg for less and less friends, greedy and wanting death.

it's getting to be too much and i find myself relying on stupid little unworthy things for a smile or laugh.

this is unhealthy and i'm hoping it'll end soon.