Best Friend's Boy

FIVE

We had been at Dani's for 2 hours. I was annoyed. Ash hasn't said two words to me. Just when I thought he was cool, he does this. Kiss ass.

"We should go to the mall sometime, Kato, You could get new clothes."

"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY CLOTHES!" I yelled.

This made everyone smirk. "Well, you dress so... fruity." Nick said, trying not to smile.

"Oh blow me." I barked.

Nick gave a hurt look. "Grumpy ass."

I rolled my eyes. My phone rang in my pocket, and I answered it. ''Mom wants me home.." I got up and headed for the door.

Ash stood too. "I'll give you a ride."

Confused, I agreed. "Uh, Kay." Hesitating, not sure if he was for real. We walked out of Dani's house after our goodbye's and climbed into his car, only to sit in awkward silence. "Could you tell me what your motherfucking problem is?" I said in the sweetest voice possible.

"Problem?" Ash asked, his turn to be confused.

"Yeah, 'problem'. Nice one second, dick fish the next."

More confused he asks, "Dick fish?" 

"Yep. Dick fish. You smell and cum bubbles." I barked, annoyed.

He laughed, then tried to turn it into a sneeze. Right then, we were arriving at my house. I sighed, getting out without saying anything more. 

"Kato!" I heard my mom call from some part of the house.

"What?"

''Dining room!"

I walked to the dining room. I walked faster, wondering what was going on. "Why did you need me home immediately?" I ask, my sister and mother were sitting at the table. Mom nervous, Jade excited. "What's happening?" 

My mom was the first to talk. "Kato... I completely understand if you don't feel the need to but..." She trailed off.

"What?" I asked, curiosity taking over.

"Your dad. He's in town... He wants to meet you and Jade." Time froze right then. Never met my dad. Neither had Jade. Mom and him split before we were born. I guessed that when he heard that Mom was pregnant, with twins, he went crazy and left. 

And then he's back. All of a sudden. Wanting to know his children.

"Kato?'' Mom pushed, because I hadn't said anything. 

"I-I don't know." I answered something that wasn't asked.

"I want to see him." Jade squeaked.

I looked at my sister. She was so excited, so overjoyed. "Well you could meet him anytime. He will be in town for 9 months, or more, for work."

If only he could have stayed for those 9 months when Mom was pregnant.

"Are you coming with me Kato?" Jade asked. I could tell she wanted me to go. This was still hard to understand. How could he just come back? 

"I....Don't know." I whisper. How could I? I don't know my own dad. It would be so awkward like 'Hey dude I'm the kid that you abandoned before I even existed. So hows your life?'

I tried to sort my thoughts. My mom yelled something to me that I didn't care to understand and I ran to my room and slammed the door. I face planted on my bed.

What if he hated me? What if I wasn't smart enough, funny enough, good enough... What if he just left again?

But I could try... No harm in that...

''GAHHHHHHH!" My shriek was muffled by my face being shoved into a pillow.

This was so tiring. I took a few deep breaths to calm down, then accidentally fell asleep.

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"Mom, I am going to take a walk!" I yelled, closing the front door. After I woke up, I felt relaxed and didn't know if I wanted to meet my--Dad...but I had time. 9 months is a looong time.

It was still sort of early in the morning, so nobody was really out. I walked a little, before I came to an open field. Dani, Nick, Dylan and I would come here to relax and think. We wouldn't talk, just lay there and listen to nature.

So that's what I did. The cold grass crunched as I laid on it. I watched the sun come up over the mountains as I took deep breaths.

"Mom, why do all of the other kids have a daddy too? Do we not have one?" Jade asks mom after parent day at school.

"Jade, Kato, you have a daddy. But daddy couldn't stay. I got lucky because I got to keep you guys all to me." Mom said, hugging us both.

I covered my face with my arms, blocking the sun.

"He left us? Why?" I asked, Jade and I had hurt looks.

"I guess he wasn't ready to be a daddy. But it's not your fault at all. It'd definitely not. I love you guys more than anything." Mom whispered, trying not to cry.

Pain. That's all I felt. Dad left us. He could've stayed, but flipped and ran off.

"What do you mean, 'It's not your fault'! Yes it is! You and him were perfectly then we came along and fucked it up!" I screamed, Jade was holding my hand and tears sploshing down our faces.  We ran up to my room before mom could say anything.

"I hate him. I hate Dad, Jade." I cried, crawling into my bed. We were both thirteen.

I let out a breath, blinking back tears. Even with me trying really hard, tears fell down my face. "Shit." I whispered. They wouldn't stop, so I went home. I started to walk back home and ran into something that had shoes. 

"S-sorry." I said to whoever I ran into.

"No problem Kato." Ash said.

I tried to get around him but he held me back.

"You alright?" He asked, with a care in his voice that was never there before. I just nodded, not wanting to say anything. He tipped my chin back so he could see my face. I closed my eyes. My eyes were probably red and puffy and I didn't want him to know I was crying. "Kato.." He said when tears slipped down my face. "Look at me." 

I didn't open them. I didn't want to see his pity.

He sighed and them something pressed against my lips. I opened my eyes and saw Asher-ASHER- kissing me.

HOLY SHIT 

HOLY SHIT

HOLY SHIT

Tingles spread through my body. After realizing what was happening, I kissed back. Fuck fireworks, grenades went off. His tongue licked my bottom lip and I let him in. He slipped his tongue in and I didn't resist. His tongue explored my mouth, sucking and nipping my tongue. We broke a part after some time, breathing very heavy. We both gazed into each others eyes and he smiled. A real smile. 

"You stopped crying." He blushed, and rubbed my cheek with his hand.

The warmth was gone but I kept a smile on my face.

Retard! He only kissed you to make you stop crying. It was pity. He's not interested in you. You're a guy. Ash is straight. He just didn't know how to cheer you up, so he kissed you.

"Yeah." I mumbled looking at the ground. 

He lifted my chin again. "You gonna be okay?"

I nodded, looking everywhere but to him.

"I'm driving you home." I didn't argue. I nodded, and we got in his car. He drove me home and when I arrived, it no longer looked like I was crying, which was good because l didn't want Mom and Jade asking questions. 

"Thanks." I said once we stopped. He grabbed my wrist before I got out. His lips were pressed on mine again, but softer this time. I returned it, feeling pitiful that he had to kiss me to make me feel better. 

"Bye." He smiled after we separated and I walked into my house without saying anything more.