The new girl in town.

why is it always me.

I watch the picture turn into debris in a matter of seconds,once completely gone i turn on the faucet and watch it go down the drain.I put the lighter back into the drawer and grab the broom and dustpan and clean up the broken glass.I dump the shattered remains and the grey frame,then walk up to my room.I close the door and shut the curtains then turn on my star projector and lay down on the floor looking at my ceiling."why is it always me." i whisper to myself a single tear gliding down my cheek,i get up and grab a black sweater from my closet and lay back down with it on.I've always loved the stars something about it calms me down and gives me hope for the moment i really don't know why.I have hundreds of pictures of nebulas,northern lights,horizons with northern lights and such.Ding dong i turn my head to my door "who the fuck is that?" i ask myself not expecting company,i trollop downstairs wiping the tears from my check and trying to make my eyes look normal.Its Cole i open the door and wait expectantly for him to say something,instead he hugs me tight "everything will be okay." he says voice coming from the top of my head.And with that i loose it i break down crying suddenly unable to stand we slowly come to the floor still hugging."shh." Cole comforts me while rubbing the top of my head,"I'm so fucking stupid." i  say angry with myself  "its not your fault." he reassures me wiping my tears as i look up at him.He helps me up "lets go to dream hill." he suggests "ill buy ice cream for us." i nod and grab my keys heading out the door not bothering to grab my phone.We walk across the street getting into his parents car and driving down to the mall."why are we here?" i ask "best ice cream around." he answers excitedly getting out of the car,the walk through the parking lot was silent but not awkward it was comfortable.We reach a store called dairy queen we walk in and their ice cream selections look delicious i lick my lips staring at the creamy sensation.he orders chocolate chip ice cream and i order pineapple coconut,we walk out with our extra large ice cream stuffing our faces.We drive back to his house and begin the walk to dream hill,it was quiet until he broke the silence "how'd you get that cut?" he asks pointing out my cut i did earlier,"glass." i lied hoping he would believe "so,you cut yourself." he looks into my eyes "yes." i answered avoiding his gaze "why?" he asks worry filled in his eyes "because I'm sad inside." i answer him honestly,after that we just sit on the edge of the hill as usual.We finish our ice cream and throw the containers over the edge and watch them fall."we should go." he interrupts getting me up and walking our journey through the woods " the pain gets overwhelming." i answer his previous question.He nods comprehending before i knew it we were at my front door "be careful." he says hugging me tightly "i will." i reassure him saying goodbye closing my door.I walk up to my room and go to bed i needed a nap after this whole situation.Beep beep beep beep beep I get up and shut off my alarm blinking my eyes trying to figure the time out 6:50 holy shit i slept through yesterday.I shake it off and walk into my bathroom and take a shower twenty minuets later i come out grabbing a pair of simple shorts and my galaxy vans and a lace paramore band tee.I quickly dress myself and apply some  mascara and let my hair loose.I grab my phone and change the case.I got it last week when my mom bought me clothes and stuff,the case is a picture of a rose in the background and the name Peirce the veil in script.I walk downstairs realizing its only 7:30 i grab a bowl and eat some honey nut cheerios then leave my house.I say my usual goodbye to Al and he tells me my mother is coming home today,i approach the front of my school and untie with the girls.We walk to our lockers and Ryder walks up to me "hey baby." he flirts "shut up,why don't you." i say resisting the urge to slap the shit out of him "ouch,why the cold shoulder." he asks i slam my locker door closed and i slap him in the face,the force turning his head leaving a red mark.Oops "what the fuck is wrong with you." he asks angrily backing me to a wall i put my hand on his chest to increase the distance "girls go to class,i have to deal with this tell the old bat i had an emergency or something." they nod and scurry to class "my problem is you,that's my fucking problem." i spat "i didn't do shit too you." he lies "oh really? so that girl you kissed yesterday wasn't shit?" i yell angrier than before "what are you talking about." he lies "Your seriously lying to me right now?! you know what I'm done with you and all your bullshit lies too." i say walking away until he tugs my arm back "look I'm sorry okay,i never meant to hurt you.I like you a lot summer." he says while brushing a loose strand of hair behind my ear but i don't give a reaction."seriously summer,i like you not her." i cant help but give in "okay whatever." i say "will you be mine?" he asks and i remain speechless then finally i nod and go to class.I walk in the room and the old bat starts talking shit "yeah okay,whatever." i reply to her  blabbering about calling my mother,honestly shes too busy with work so she wont pick up.I take a seat next to Skyler "what happened with Ryder?" she asks me "were dating now." i reply leaving out the argument "be careful,i don't want you getting hurt." she tells me i nod and start working on history assignments.The period bell rings and i gather my things and exit the classroom walking to ELA that i have with Cole.I enter the class early so i sit and take out my notebook and begin to scribble down lyrics memories of a broken heart now im alone in the dark.When Cole strolls in quietly and sits next to me i turn the page and he takes out his books "me and Ryder date now." i tell him "just be careful okay," he replies why is everyone telling me that? i nod then concentrate on the lecture,the day goes by all too fast and its now last period and I'm in art.I'm on my way to art when i see Ryder leaning against the lockers talking to a girl who is all way too close i walk up to them "excuse me,what the hell are you doing?" i ask not even waiting for him to respond i walk away "were over." i yell from down the hall freaking unbelievable i walk into art and sit down not talking to any of my Friends.