To the guy who's STUCK on my mind.

I sure wish I knew

I sure wish I knew, that you were making me blind. Blind that I don't believe in my friends, not even my best friend. My HEART, My MIND tells me to keep on getting your attention, to keep on talking to you, to just be with you. But my friends keep on telling me to stop what I'm doing. To not give you special treatment because you aren't worth it. 

But, no. I kept on telling them to not even dare talk bad about you. I told them to stop their crap, and just support me.Whenever they say, " He just using you! " or " Don't get your hopes up high with him!" But I never listen to them, because I loved and cared about you.

I sure wish I knew what you were up to, how you planned to fool me. How you planned your excuses how hungry you are, how you were lazy. How you planned to backstab me at the end. How you never talk about me positively, or how you never said, " Thank You. " You never really official our friendship to anyone. You never said " You liked or loved me..." 

 But I don't know if you've done these things you never did, like they said never say never. What if you talked about me positively to someone. What if I never caught all your Thank You(s). What if you talked about our friendship to anyone. What if you were just playing from all your actions. What if you didn't mean to fool me, or you weren't planning too. What If that wasn't a game at all. What If you liked me, but I never notice. All those cherry blush cheeks you have were the signs. What If?!

                                                 Im still silently, quietly, hoping that you'll end up with me.