A Shade Darker (on hold)

Chapter 4

How could I be so stupid? I had completely forgotten about the other night with Colton. Biting my lip, I cowardly peered up at Chad. This was going to be rough.

His eyes seemed to be budging out in anger. You could make out his neck veins perfectly too. Even his hands clenched up in tight fists.

"Don't fucking look at me like that. Who the fuck gave you that?" Chad yelled, staring at the hickey on my stomach.

I couldn't tell him. That wouldn't be smart. Trying to come up with something on the spot I lied, "No, it's not like that."

"Then fucking explain it to me," Chad's face was getting red.

"I was," I paused looking for the right words, "playing catch. Playing catch with my brother. You know Egan. He threw the ball a little hard and I didn't catch it. It's not a hickey, Chad. Just a bruise."

I sure hope he bought that. It's the best I'm capable of for the moment.

"Just a bruise? Do I look like I'm fucking stupid?"

Guess I needed to work on lying on the spot.

"Chad, it didn't mean anything. I was just- I was lonely." I knew that there was no way in hell I would be getting out of this one.

"Tell me who the fuck it is." Chad gripped onto my wrisits.

"It was Colton." I didn't want to lie to him any more.

I probably could have gotten away with not telling him directly. It was fairly obvious. Who else would I have been comfortable with to let kiss me like that.

Pushing my wrisits away, Chad shouted, "Does that asshole not know any fucking boundaries? And same to you! God damnnit Aubrey. I didn't fuck anyone over there."

How did he know about that too? You can't tell if someone slept with someone from hickeys.

"How'd you know?" I let myself to prepare to cry.

"I'm not stupid." Chad snarled back at me.

"Chad, I really didn't mean to. I was so lonely and we just got carried away. I'd been crying and Colton told me he wanted to make me feel better. I know I should have stopped him but it-it felt good."

Chad squinted his eyes, "Did you fuck him?"

I could feel my eyes grow larger in fear. He didn't know. Chad must have been just stating he didn't do anything. Oh boy.

"I did. It was only a couple times. Only in the beginning too. We made out the other day for a last resort. I am so sorry baby." I cried the words as I recalled what I had done with Colton.

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"Colton, I can't." I whispered as I stroked the back of Colton's neck.

Lowering his head, he planted a gentle kiss in the center of my forehead. His messy black hair tickling my skin. "I just want to make you feel good. I can try to ease the pain."

"We can't tell anyone," I whispered, staring straight into his pool of blue eyes.

"It'll be our little secret. No one has to know." Colton smiled again.

Nodding slowly, I rubbed his bare back. "Just go slow."

"Atta girl," Colton smirked at me before climbing off my body.

He kneeled off to the side of me and ran a hand over his thick hair.

"What's wrong?" I questioned, slightly worried.

Colton didn't look at me. He kept his eyes on the mattress. "Look, you know I like you. I hope this isn't pressuring you. I'd hate to do that to the girl I like."

"Colton, you know I'm attracted to you too." I tried to dance around the word 'like.' I knew I loved Chad and my heart didnt have room to like Colton too. There was enough to be extremely attracted to him though.

"You have to be one hundred percent sure. I don't want you to have any regrets. This is still new to you, right?" Colton finally made some eye contact with me.

Colton was right. I had just given it up two weeks prier. Here I was with a new guy already.

I didn't really mind though. Now that my virginity is lone gone, there's no point in holding back any longer.

 "Come here, before I change my mind." I smiled.

Coming back above me, Colton grind his hips into mine. "Nice and slow, right?"

"Nice and slow." I repeated, anxious for the rest of the evening.  

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Chad drew his lips into a tight line. A simple nod was given to me but he stalked out of his room.

I couldn't go home, it was too late. I simply crawled into his bed and curled up. Maybe tomorrow we would be able to talk things through.