I'm going no where. In my mind I have come to a stop. A pause. A terrible break. It dosent help the thoughts pass through one at a time anymore, the blockade has made them jam into one agonizing continuum of thoughts good and bad. Granted I have more horrible thoughts than the great. I don't know how to even differentiate them anymore. I'm hurting people without my consent. My willpower has been diminishing by the hour. I just wish I didn't regret so much. That I could've fixed so much if I had maybe been more thoughtful on how I acted. But even if there is no use thinking this over again. I can't help but constantly blame myself and keep backwards thinking. It's nothing anyone can help. I know I've got to pull through it myself, I always do. I have few people who really impact me with there wisdom on the feelings but even that happiness that has been given has an expiration date.
