Standing Still

Chapter 5: Creepy

It was about twenty minutes later when I got a hold of myself. I opened my bedroom door and walked out to watch TV. Actually, I more skipped then walked. I sat down and started watching. I knew that my dad was staring at me, and I bet that he heard my little episode. But, I didn't say anything, I knew that once I started talking about it, I would never stop and I do not want to talk about this to him. Yet.

" What are you excited about?" he asks.

" Nothing," I say smiling.

" It's obviously something," he says.

" Honestly dad, it's nothing," I say. I could tell he didn't believe me, but I just ignored him. I bet he heard my episode, but I didn't say anything. I knew that once I started on this conversation, I would never be able to stop, and I am not ready to have this talk. Yet.

" Okay...there's leftovers in the fridge, you can heat that up for dinner," he says slowly.

" Okay," I say. He stares at me for a few more minutes, but I make sure that my face gives nothing away. He gives up and goes to his room, and as soon as he leaves I start grinning. I couldn't help it. I went to the kitchen heated up some food, and the whole time I was eating, I couldn't help but picture Isabella and smile the whole time.

After I ate, I went to my room. I just sat their for a few hours, thinking. Should I tell her? How am I going to tell her? I'm definitely not going to go up to her and just tell her, " I think I like you," talk about creepy. These thoughts kept dancing in my head when I say that it was about 9:00. I didn't bother to shower tonight. I'll just shower in the morning. I just put on shorts and went to bed. Thinking about Isabella, and her smile.

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I woke up this morning, and strangely, I don't think that I had any nightmares. Talk about weird, but I shouldn't focus on this. I have to meet Isabella and somehow tell her. My mom always said, " When you're lucky enough to fall in love, make sure you take it while it's in front of you." That is exactly what I plan to do. I jump out of bed, quickly take a shower, throw on clothes, grab my backpack and run out the door. I didn't even bother to say goodbye to my dad or eat breakfast, I was in too much of a hurry.

I ran out the door and sprinted to school, not caring who was giving me funny looks, I had to get to school early. I was dodging people and knocking things out of their hands, but I couldn't care less. I was a block away from the school and it was barely 7:00, but I couldn't risk it. Just a little farther, I think. I finally reach the school and I stand at the entrance trying to catch my breath. I've never ran so fast in my life, but I couldn't think of that. Yesterday, Isabella told me that she always rode the bus. Bus 6. So I'm gonna stand here and wait for her.

A lot of buses started pulling in and I was starting to get worried. It was almost 7:30, and that's when school starts. I can't afford to be late again, I'll get detention! So I decide I'm just gonna wait for one more. I see a bus in the distance and see, it's bus six! Finally. I think. The bus parks and I run over. I see many kids that I'd never be bothered to talk to on this one. I doubt any of them even notice that I'm standing here. No one except Isabella who saw me as soon as she got off the bus.

" Tony!" she yells. She runs over and gives me a hug. I hug her back, but embarrassedly too long.

" Hey, I have to ask you something," I say in my soft voice.

" Sure, fire away," she says with a smile. This is the moment where I tell her my feelings. Then, she jumps into my arms and kisses me, like in the movies right? Wrong. In reality, I chicken out and say,

" Oh...nothing...I...guess...forget it," I stutter out.

" Oh, well I guess I'll see you this afternoon," she says. I think I hear some disappointment in her voice. But, I can't let her get away.