The Broken Girl

A Fresh Start..Kinda

I groan as I walk around this empty black place. "Hello!?" I shout out. Nothing, I groan again and suddenly I see a white flashing light. "Hello..?" I walk towards it. "Charlie..My child." I narrow my eyes. "Who are you?" The white flashing light dies down and a person walks out the light. A woman to be exact, I take a step back. "Who are you?" I ask. The lady laughs and takes a step towards me, I stand still. "Charlie..I'm your Mother." My heart skips a beat. "M-Mom?" She nods. "Yes?" I feel tears stinging my eyes. "Mom!" I run and I hug her. "Oh my! Charlie.." I laugh and I feel tears rolling down my cheeks. "Mom...Why?" She giggles.

'My giggle..'
'Thats our Mom alright..'
'I don't like this'
'And when was the last time you liked anything!?'

I shrug the thoughts off and I hug my Mom a little tighter. "Charlie..I never planned to get murdered ya'know?" I stay silent. "Remember what Austin said? Don't hate ME for this.." I scoff. "He abused me.." She giggles and pushes me away. "No child..okay the first time was for your own good!" I look down, she hooks her finger under my chin and makes me look up. "The second time was for what you called his Mother." I take her hand away from my chin. "She killed my Mom before I even got to see my Mom..So yeah I called her a bitch! And I do understand if Austin slapped me..I would've slapped myself later on.." My Mom looks at my arms and face. "Too late.." I look at my arms and I start remember what I did to myself. "Yes..I did because I know that I deserve it.." I look at her. "And I deserve so much worse." She smiles. "Why? Why do you deserve it?" I shrug. "A lot of people don't like seeing me happy.." She shrugs. "Because they have their own problems..And since you were the most vulnerable one throughout the entire school, they thought. "Let's take out all the anger and frustration on her!"..and yes I have heard what you called me." I look away from her only to be forced to look at her again. "And I totally understand." I tilt my head. "You do?" She nods. "Yes..and I see what you do the next day..and you shouldn't have to do that.." I shrug. "I deserved it for what I said about you.." She shrugs. "Charlie..How do you deserve to be sad?" My whole body freezes. "W-What?" I ask not moving a muscle. "How do you deserve to be depressed?" I slowly run my hand through my hair.

'..How do I deserve it?'
'You..that's a really good question..'

I turn to her and I take a breath. "..Father blamed me for your dea-" She shakes her head. "He hasn't just blamed you...He blamed everyone that was close to him.." I sigh. "Father abused me." She sighs. "Your Father has always let his anger out by hitting things..He would hit the walls and things when your not there.." I groan. "He nearly raped me!" She stands up with a serious face. "Your Father hasn't had sex for over 17 Years of your life!" I scoff. "So he tries to rape his own flesh and blood!? Why are you protecting an abusive grieving rapist!?" She gasps. "How DARE you!" I scoff again. "Look, I know you don't know me at all and I know you love him probably more than me. But I am still your daughter and your lover nearly raped me!" SMACK!
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"Again?" I look up at the black sky. "Really?" I sigh and I touch the red hand print. "Where Austin slapped me!?" I glare at her. "Are you serious!?" She stays silent. "Ugh! You know what!? This might be the anger talking but no wonder his Mom killed you!" She looks down. "I bet you slapped her! Heck! Maybe even kicked her stomach!" She looks away and I shake my head, I look up at the sky. "I want to wake up now!" I start walking away from my 'Mother' "I don't want to be here anymore!!" Everywhere I look is now going blurry. "Cause everywhere I go I either get slapped!" I look down and I wipe my tears away. "Or I just get more broken by everyone I meet.." Everything goes black.
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I groan and I wake up, I wish I didn't though. "C-Charlie?" I open my eyes and I look at Austin. "Yeah?" I answer weakly. "Good..you've been asleep for hours.." I sigh. "Okay..I probably needed it." He nods and I look up at the ceiling. "Austin..could you tell me why your Mom killed my Mom?" I hear Austin sigh. "I really don't thi-" I take a breath. "I don't care what I've been through...I don't care if it'll break me more.." I look at him. "Just tell me." He sighs and looks at me. "Fine.." I stare at him and he takes a breath. "My Mom was jealous..Because your Mom had a best friend that was dating my Mom..My Mom thought what your Mom and my fake Dad had was special..so she got jealous..and she let all her emotions take over her and she killed your Mom.." I look back to to ceiling and I narrow my eyes. "That's it?" He sighs. "I guess.." I shake my head. "No..that can't be it." I look at him and he looks at me. "What do you mean?" I shrug. "That can't be it..I mean..it's stupid! A pregnant Mom doesn't just kill another pregnant Mom cause she was jealous.." Austin nods slowly. "..I see your point but..what else would there be?" I sit up slowly and I run my hand through my hair. "I don't know..but that just can't be it..My Mom could've done something to your Mom to make.." I look at him with a little smirk. "What was your Moms name?" He shrugs. "Mimi Moon..And yours was Jodie Hunter." I nod. "Okay..As I was saying. Jodie could've done something to Mimi to make Mimi kill her.." He nods and sits next to me. Our arms touch and I flinch and I move away. "Charlie?" I put my hand up. "N-No..it's j-just-" His eyes widen. "Your cheek..There's another hand print!" I stay silent. "It's bruised!" I glare at him. "I wonder why?" His eyes widen slightly and he looks away. "..Anyway..Your bit-..I stay silent. "Do it..just say it." He whispers. "..Mimi must've had a really good reason why she killed Jodie.." He clears his throat and nods. "Yeah! I mean it is stupid killing someone because their emotions took over..you would panic or have a huge crying fit like you did." I nod slowly. "..So what could Jodie have done to do that?" He shrugs. "..I don't know..and I don't want to find out.." I look at him. "Why?" He shrugs. "I mean..your still grieving..and if we do find out. We both could be panicking and having crying fits.." He looks at me. "Charlie..promise me you won't find out?" I look down to find a certain ring on my finger. "Please?" I stare at the promise ring and I smile a little, I look up and I nod. "I promise.." He looks into my eyes and nods. "Okay.." He looks away.

'You sure you wanna tell him?'
'Yeah! I'm agreeing with moody here..are you sure?'

I sigh and I smile a little.

'Yeah..I trust him now, right?'

Silence. "I um.." He looks at me and narrows his eyes a little. "I..saw my Mom..just now." He tilts his head. "In your dream?" I nod. "Yeah..She was beautiful.." He smiles slightly. "Really?" I shift closer to him and he keeps staring at me. "Yeah! She has green eyes like me..and blonde hair.." He half smiles at me. "..She slapped me." His smile turns into a frown. "..Really?" I nod and I point at my cheek. "This is how I got another hand print.." He nods and looks away. "She stuck up for my Dad..no matter what..and I do get that it's just..He nearly raped me..and he abused me.." Austin nods. "Yeah.." I sigh. "Then I woke up..and that just makes things harder for me." Austin looks down. "But I'm glad." He looks at me, I grab his hand and he looks at our hands. "I know..you never meant to slap me..as crazy as it sounds but..I'm glad you did." He raises an eye brow at me. "Because it made me realise a few things.." He smiles slightly. "I'm glad things got harder for me.." I place a hand on his face and he looks into my eyes. "Because I got you..every step of the way..Austin you could hit me, torture me, heck! Even kill me!" His smile slowly grows. "But I'm gonna love you, dead or not..and your stuck with me..for eternity." He smiles and I smile. "Tomorrow we'll get a ice pack for my cheek..tonight..we chill." He nods and I lay my head on his chest. Listening to his beating heart that seems to be going fast. "Why is yo-" He chuckles. "You do that..you still have that effect on me." I smile. "You do too." I look up and he slowly leans in, I nod my head and he kisses me.

Fireworks start bursting and tingly sensations start run around my arms and legs. Butterflies are flapping around my stomach like crazy.

'You still have that effect on me..Like always.'