The Broken Girl

Dear Agony

//Bold-Song
Italics-Charlie's Thoughts
Underline-positive thoughts
Both- Charlie Singing//
Song Intro
Why do I get bullied? Why can't it stop?
I really want this whole thing to stop!
Then why don't you do something about it?
I have nothing left to give, I have found the perfect end, you were made to make it hurt, disappear into the dirt
Why can't I just disappear? I mean if no one likes me why can't a hole just swallow me up forever? And they were made to make it hurt
Cause your letting them hurt you, you need to try and stop them
Carry me to heavens arms, light the way and let me go, take the time and take my breath, I will earn where I began
Why can't I die? I mean I know I wouldn't have the guts to do it myself but why can't I just fall asleep forever? I feel trapped in hell, who will shine the light and put me back where I began?
There will be somebody, you just can't give up you gotta keep that last bit of hope
And I will find the enemy within, cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin
I feel like I'm not me anymore, I feel like I'm a complete stranger, I don't even know who I am but..I know the real me is just beneath all of this, it's just screaming to get out
We've just gotta wait until that light comes, it's coming Charlie
Dear Agony, just let go of me, suffer slowly, is this the way it's gotta be? Dear Agony
You know what? I don't deserve this! I mean I have tried standing up to Sally and my Dad before but..they just beat me down harder..Hm..maybe..I do deserve this? i mean..Mom did leave because I was born so she left..that's why my Dad hits me..I don't know about Sally though..
Jeez Charlie you had a second of hope and it got crushed with doubts, don't let Sally and our Dad get in our way!
Suddenly the lights go out, let forever drag me down, I will fight for one last breath, I will fight until the end
Why can't forever drag me down?
Cause if it does you won't ever get a shot at love
And why should I care for such a thing?
Cause that's all you need right now, that light that will eventually come? Will be the light of love
Pfft get over yourself!
Well you gotta keep fighting for that one last breath..
And I will find the enemy within, cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin
I feel angry all the time, I mean my Mom left me, my Dad abuses me, Sally and her stupid gang bully me, no one loves me or likes me and my own best friend for life leaves me to fend for myself!
I know I know, you just gotta keep that tiniest bit of hope you have and believe that something good will come outta this
Dear Agony, just let go of me, suffer slowly, is this the way it's gotta be?, don't bury me, face less enemy, I'm so sorry, is this the way it's gotta be?, Dear Agony
I get up and I turn to the tree angrily "leave me alone" I grab my head and shake it then I look at the sky "God let me go" I look at the tree and punch it "I'm blue and cold" I look at the sky as I take steps forward "Black sky will burn" I trip over my own feet and hit the floor with a thump, I lift myself up a little "Love pull me down" I get back up and I stare ahead "Hate lift me up, just turn around" I turn around and all my anger turns into sadness "There's nothing left, somewhere far beyond this world" I look up at the sky and then back at the tree, my anger comes boiling back in "I feel nothing anymore" I scream and I punch the tree, again, again and again, the punches won't stop until my knuckles drip with blood "Dear Agony, just let go of me, suffer slowly, is this the way it's gotta be? don't bury me, face less enemy, I'm so sorry, is this the way it's gotta be? Dear Agony" Punch after punch after punch, i eventually stop and fall to my knees "I feel nothing anymore" I look at my knuckles, then I lean against the tree with my bloody knuckles resting on my knees, before I could even process what's happening, my eyes grow heavier and heavier until I pass out.