I sincerely apologise to all my readers for not updating for these pass few weeks . I've been really busy with exams but I'm now hoping I'll be able to update regularly.
Dedication:takeliamhome ( thanks for agreeing to making a cover for my book,really appreciate it)
Ayinonimous
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James POV
Why is everything so dark? Where am I?. Taking a slow but slightly painful breathe I try to calm down as the familiar feeling of panic begins to well up inside me. Cautiously prying my eyes open I scrunch up my face at the blinding light that attacks my frail eyes.
Everything is so white. It feels like I'm one of those mental disabled people that they put in isolation away from humanity. Hearing an annoying beeping sound coming from beside me I cautiously move my head to one side only to face a weird looking contraption. A heart monitor. That's weird , how the hell did a heart monitor get beside me? Jesus Christ I'm in a hospital!
Softly nibbling on my bottom lip I clinched my hands into two identical fists and try as hard as I can to recall how I had gotten here. Feeling something soft ticklish rub against my wrist I jump up in surprise at the sensation causing my whole body to call out from the assertion I was making it go through. Groaning out loud I try to calm myself down As I was beginning to feel a little bit fatigue afterwards so I lay back into a sitting position . Looking down at the culprit I am met with strangely familiar turfs of blondish sandy hair laid down beside my leg. Curious to find out who it was I take a chance Why is everything so dark? Where am I?. gently nudged the person on the head in an effort to wake them up. The person lets out a deep groan which instantly I recognised.
"Lockey?" I croaked a little surprised at how deep my voice sounded but not dwelling on it at the moment
" James?"Lockey questions bewilderedly clearly still half asleep
"Yes it's me"
"Oh my god!You're awake!" He yells in disbelief his emerald green eyes shining brighter than I've ever seen before as he cups my cheeks in both of his calloused hands. Searching his face I notice how much thinner his face looks and also how dark circle hung underneath his eyes. Dread fills my soul at the thought of him not sleeping or eating because of me. Trying to avoid making any eye contact so he doesn't see the obvious emotion mine held , I focus the rest of my attention on his overall appearance instead. Shocked by the sight of a jagged line of thread running across his entire left hand up until it reached his elbow I slowly inch forward little by little to inspect it. Leaning forward I am suddenly hit by a body wrangling pain coming from my lower back. Slowly and carefully I attempt to manoeuvre myself back into the sitting position I was in before. Now in a comfortable position I Gently Rub against the specific spot the pain I had come from in hopes of the action being able to ease away the pain. Now becoming an ache in my backside I take a deep intake of air and decide on just asking him a few questions instead.
"Are yo-"
"Lockey w-what happened? Why am I in the hospital? ? How long have I been here? Whats going on" I interrupt his question in a haste to get all the I needed out of him. Lightly he pushes his index finger onto my lips in order to stop my rant from going on any longer.
"Slow down bubble butt" he teases his teasing smile sending my exhausted body into overdrive. My steady heartbeat becomes abnormally fast causing the heart monitor that was attached to my chest go on a rampage. Blushing hard I duck my head down in an effort to prevent him from seeing my now tomato coloured face " everything is fine , well now that your awake it is. All I needed were a few stitches and that was it" Lockey says pointing to the stitches running across his arm. Nodding my head I soon regret the action as the room starts to spin and black spots colour my vision. Holding my head in a steady position the hospital room slowly comes back into view.
"Sorry I got a little bit dizzy"I apologise looking at the worried look that plastered Lockeys face
"Are you sure you're ok" he asked, concerned
"Yes"I sighed"now tell me how I got here. The last thing I remember was me....." I couldn't finish my sentence because if how i could feel those dreadful images emerging back up into already tainted mind , taunting me with their every being.
"When I'd entered the place he had being keeping you I saw him..r-raping you while you were unconscious. I was so scared and angry that I'd beat him up until he was practically soaked in his blood. I thought he had taken you away from me ,love" his green eyes blinking rapidly as he held onto my hand for dear life.
"I'm sorry " I whispered
"For what?" Lockey asks looking bewildered
"For putting you through all this. If it wasn't because of me none of this would have happened in the first and you wouldn't-" he hushes me up by pressing a gently kiss upon my lips. It was nothing more than a simple kiss but it still made my insides tingle with warmth. Hearing the heart monitor furiously beeping again i instantly turn a bright shade of red.
"Your so cute when you get flustered"he chuckles brushing back a piece of greasy brown hair out of my face.
"Stop flattering me I already know I look like shit"I say pointing my greasy hair
"Well last time I checked shit was brown not white"
"No need to get smart with me"I joke giving him a quick peck on the lips.
"Alright alright I admit that I might have gotten a little bit smart with you but on my defence I was telling you the truth"
"Touché"
"Anyway I've been meaning to tell you this for awhile and I would like if you'd hear me out cause...honestly if I don't tell you now I don't think I ever will " Lockey says now suddenly looking serious
"Lockey is everything ok?" I asked really confused at how weird he was suddenly acting.
"Yes everything is okay" he states " all I need is for you to just hear me out please"
"Okay...go ahead"
"I don't really know how I can express my feelings towards you cause really..I'm frightened to death by them myself. When I'd first met You i had an instant hatred towards you as I felt like you would be a future threat to my sex life"
"What!...oops sorry continue"
"You see...Ever since I was young I'd had been forced to watch my mother been abused by the only guy she thought loved her until..s-she couldn't take it anymore and committed suicide. It took only a Few years after her death for me to go in search of something that could fill up the void that she had left behind when she had died. And for awhile it was sex that filled it up. I had sex so much that at one point in my life Id be thinking about when I would be having sex again during sex. And it was like that up until I met you. When you came Around I definitely knew I hated you but then somehow along the way I started to develop some estrange feelings towards you which for the life of me I didn't understand. Like I was straight so how could I have feelings for another guy , it must be my brain playing tricks with me. And I did believe that..well for while before I became really close to you. And then I knew , right there and then that those feelings weren't fake. But now that I've experienced a near close to death experience with you I think..no! I know my those feelings have grown stronger. Strong enough that I must tell you now. James Andre Anderson I love you"
"I love you too Lockey Simon smith, forever and always" i say before leaning forward and giving him a sweet passionate kiss.
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Teacher , teach me more( Manxman)(mpreg)(teacher/student) *UNDERGOING EDITING*
RomanceLockey smiths life was picture perfect. He was the best quarterback in his football team, he had the hottest girl to call his girlfriend and had everyone's attention without effort. But that was all just a facade. On the inside he was suffering. ...
