So, I was actually going to stop this story and delete it because I had serious writer's block and I've been so busy with college, but luckily with the help of my friend Dee, I am indeed able to finish this lovely panfic. Enjoy :)
Courtney's POV
Watching Pan walk away from a battle was one of the strangest things that could happen in Neverland, and there were many of those. I had never seen Pan step down from a fight before, and I was curious as to why he had done so.
After I managed to stop the Boys and Girls from fighting each other, I went to search for Pan, remembering that there was one place he would go to be alone: his thinking tree.
I approached the tree quietly, not wanting to startle Pan. I couldn't see him, but I could hear him muttering to himself. "Stupid, Pan. How could you be so stupid?" He insulted himself, coming into view as he paced back and forth. "Peter Pan isn't suppose to have feelings, let alone for a girl!" He tugged at his hair. "I finally had the chance to kill Courtney, to rid Neverland of her and those Lost Girls, but I couldn't! All because I-" He paused, quickly running his hands through his hair. I watched Pan and listened intently. "I love her..." He whispered, but loud enough for me to hear. I stared at him in shock and watched him pace some more, shaking his head. He chuckled to himself and licked his lips. "I love her." He repeated, sounding as if he couldn't believe it himself. I wanted to run out from my hiding spot and confront him about it, but I couldn't bring myself to do it, so I quietly backed away from the tree, away from Pan, and I ran.
I stopped running until I reached the lagoon, sitting down at the edge of the dock. I caught my breath and sat there in silence for a moment, letting my thoughts run wild. Pan loves me? Me?? Why? "No, Pan doesn't feel. He's a self-centered, immature teenager. He can't love me." I said to myself, but then I'd just heard him admit that he did. Part of me was so surprised and wasn't sure how to react, while the other was...happy. It meant that the kisses we'd shared were real, they meant something to him. I started to smile, but then I realized that there could never be anything between Pan and I. I didn't want to love him, I couldn't! Why? Because I knew that if I fell too hard, Pan wouldn't be there to catch me, and so I had to deny my feelings for as long as I could until they were no longer of existence. I had to continue to fight for Neverland, for the sake of the Girls, for me. I shook my head and pulled my knees to my chest, hiding my face, and I just sat there, thinking.
