A/N: Before you read this chapter, listen to "Words" by Skylar Grey. It's my inspiration for this chapter, and it's really sad but it's a beautiful song.
Courtney's POV
The day for Pan's departure had arrived and I wasn't sure if I was happy or sad about it. I'd initially wanted to avoid him until the day came, but some part of me wanted to spend as much time around Pan as I could. Everyone seemed to cherish the final week together, especially Gee and Kae with Felix and Devon. No one was happy about the banishment but knew it had to happen eventually and there was no turning back.
I kept my distance from Pan, trying to figure out whatever feelings I was developing, not wanting to have them but I couldn't stop them from forming either. I avoided any touch or glance at Pan for the entire week, giving small smiles to him and everyone else as I watched them spend time together while they all had the chance.
"Avoiding me, are you, Courtney?" I heard Pan ask from behind me. I'd been lying in my bed all day, just thinking things through. I sat up and turned to face him. "I'm not in the mood, Pan." I climbed out of bed and walked into the bathroom to freshen up. "Might I ask why?" I heard him sit on the bed. "It's nothing that concerns you." I replied as I walked out of the bathroom, avoiding his stare.
"Really?" I nodded. I heard him stand and felt a hand pull on my wrist, turning me around. "Because you haven't looked at me since our battle." "I've had lots to think about." I looked anywhere but him, knowing that I just couldn't bring myself to do it. "Things like what?" I shook my head. "Courtney." I gave no reply, so Pan lifted my head. I looked up at him for the first time during that dreadful week and saw his expression of concern. "You've been avoiding me. Why?" Once again, I didn't reply. "Are you regretting the banishment? Isn't this what you've wanted? To have Neverland to yourself?" "Yes, but seeing how happy everyone else is together..." Pan looked at me with an unknown emotion on his face. "I agree, but a deal is a deal. We can't change that. Everyone understands that." I sighed and nodded.
"There's something else you want to say, isn't there?" Pan whispered. I stared at him for a moment and he back at me. No sound other than our breathing was heard in the room and I felt...suffocated. "Courtney I-" He was cut off by a knock at the door. "Hold on for a sec." I said as I went to answer it, taking a deep breath as I did.
"I've come for Pan. We're ready." Felix said as I opened the door. He didn't look very happy. "I'm coming. Thank you, Felix." He nodded and walked away, but not before glaring at me. "Are you coming along to see us off or no?" Pan asked as he was about to follow after Felix. "Ah, no. I think I've gotten enough glares for the time being. I have to deal with the Girls after you've all gone." He chuckled and nodded, then we were both silent again until Pan broke it. "I should go then. A bit of a journey to travel and an awful lot of complaining to deal with." He grabbed my hand and kissed it lightly, "'Twas a pleasure to battle with you, Courtney." He joked, and I couldn't help but laugh. He smiled and started to go, but something inside me made me stop him. "Pan wait!" I shouted involuntarily, causing him to stop halfway and turn to me, eyebrows raised. In that moment, I wanted so badly to tell him everything, to inform him of why I couldn't talk to him, why part of me didn't want him to leave, but, of course, my pride got in the way, and so I just simply said: "Good luck to all of you." Pan slightly frowned, but seemingly recovered and nodded. "And to you lot as well." He turned to walk onward, and this time, I let him while my mind was clouded with the words I should've said.
Third person POV
I watched as Pan and his Lost Boys left Neverland, figuring no one was maintaining ownership of the island now that the creator had been banished. I finally had the chance to conquer it and release my lovely curse. Finally, Neverland would be mine.
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Guys is there something wrong with my writing skills? I mean I hate it but that's because I'm a perfectionist and I have OCD so I constantly check for mistakes before I actually post. And I try not to write like other writers, but is it bad? I'm worried now
