Cure me #JustWriteIt

Chapter Thirteen

"I don't think I can do this!" Lily stood up from the stairs and pulled her hands off from his grip. Getting to close with him, starting to have stronger feelings for him, all the money in the world wouldn't be enough to stop her. Setting her goals out to help him, curing him from gayness, this was wrong. It wasn't anything she could do, and it wasn't a sickness as he called it. She is also a person, who have feelings, a heart and a soul.

Jack couldn't let her go, not anymore. "Please, don't do this! I... I need you to help me!" he said, moving up close to her, as his eyes turned dark grey pools of pain reflections. His biggest fear was coming true. He couldn't let it happen.

"I don't think I can. You don't need me." She said, turning away, starting to walk away. Jack slipped around her, stopping her.

"I do. You don't even imagine, how much I need you!" Jack brushed her cheek, down to her lower lip. Her lips were small, forming a straight line. He traced the line slowly, biting his own lower lip. Lily looked up to Jack, her hands on his sides, trying to pull her face away from his touch. But she couldn't.

"Please, let me kiss you!" he said, leaning in, his forehead touching hers. "Let me prove you, that I need you! Please, let me kiss you." his breath was heavy, heart missing beats, tingling down in his stomach. He wanted to kiss her perfect lips, pull it with his teeth and find out if there was any emotion. If there was any change.

Jack slowly placed his mouth on her, testing the waters first before sinking in. Lily didn't respond at first, but she couldn't stop herself. His lips felt so passionate on her, lining the feeling with excitement. Jack grabbed her and pulled her as close he could, his hips against hers, warming her body. The tingling feeling at her got stronger with every second. As he stopped, Lily kept her eyes closed. Jack kissed the corner of her mouth.

"Please, don't leave. I can't do this without you!" he said, pulling her for a strong hug. Being together barely a week, Jack felt things change in his life. Days didn't felt same, as before. The hatred was gone. Completely disappeared, as he had felt like this forever. Lily worked on him, as no one had done before.

Before he could think anything else, Lily sat down on the grass. Her hands in her lap, twirling a ring she had on her finger, she had to tell Jack the truth. "I don't know how love works! I have never been truly in love. That's why I can't continue, I don't know how to teach you." she said, keeping her gaze down. Her eyes were glistening from tears in her eyes and that eating feeling inside her got more intense. "I have never even had sex!" Lily pleaded, looking up at Jack, who was kneeling down in front of her. "I have nothing to give you. Nothing you would want!" she said, trailing her fingers throw the wet grass. Her dressed soaked, stained by the earth. She sat on the ground, confessing things, she been thinking to say from the day one.

"You're wrong! I... I never thought that a woman can make me beg, but here I am. Down on my knees, ready to ask God to make you stay. You have done something, which nobody has. You make me feel, more than I thought could be possible!" Jack reached for her hand. "It wasn't just love I wanted, I wanted to feel passionate and real. And you make me feel powerless around you. You kind of define me." Jack sat down in front of her, dragging her over to his lap. Facing her, he cupped her face and run his fingers over her lips. "I thought kissing you would tell me, if I would feel different. And I do. I feel crazy, insane." His voice was shallow and intoxicating.

"But..." Lily almost cried out, her cheeks wet from tears glistening on her face. She felt falling for him. Maybe even she already had. But she kept pushing her feelings down, to keep him away. Jack kissed her again and this time Lily leaned in, wrapping her arms around her neck, violently responding to his lips. Her lips moving against his, she felt something poking at her down below. She stilled, as did he. The moment he felt her rub against his manliness symbol, he felt the urge to stop. But Lily didn't let him. She pushed herself more against him, spreading her thighs, and wrapping her legs around his hips.

"I can't do this!" Jack grabbed her hands and pushed her away. He couldn't take her this way, vounarbale and crying. He shook his head, being confused as she lifted her and stood up. "We can't do this right now! Not like this." he said, rubbing off the dirt from his suit and taking a step back from her. "I can't use you for my own good." Stopping for a moment, Jack looked at Lily, the innocent girl she was," I don't want to take an advantage of you!"

And on that moment Lily knew, who Jack really was. The person she though he was, it wasn't him. He never was.