Break down my walls

Salvation

   Clary's POV
Ouch.... Why does my neck hurt? I hate life sometimes...
I popped open one eye carefully and saw messy,untidy,unorganized,cluttered, dark, smelly room. My head is throbbing. Then I remembered last night. And where I am

Last night
Isabelle took my to a club. A fucking club. Seriously?!?! What the hell! Why would I want to go to a club?!! But then I saw him there. In the corner if the room. His hair putting a curtain over his features. tall and smiling. I walked up to him as best I could in high heels, which I might say, is not very good at all. He looked up at me, his dark eyes shining onyx. "Hey there. Take it easy little red." Sebastian said. Ok.... So I am a little drunk.  Okay fine a lot drunk. He put his hands around my waist, and leaned down. I was to drunk to care, so I leaned upward, crashing my lips against his. They were hard and cold, but as I said before, I'm to drunk to care. Before I knew what was happening he took me to his car, and he drive somewhere. His house. He brought me to his room. He shut the door. And that when things went south.
(Explicit content•contains sex)
He laid me down in the bed, and began to remove the stupid dress Isabelle put on me. I pulled at the buttons on his shirt, and they came loose. I tugged his shirt off, his toned chest in front of me. My dress was off, and his lips were back on mine hungrily. 3 things happened in the next minute. 1) my clothes were all off 2) his pants were gone and 3) his boxers had disappeared. He pushed me down on the bed harshly. I didn't care what he was about to do. I didn't care. Who needs there virginty anyways? I thought. Then in an instant, he pushed him self into me, and I cried out. "Holy shit, you've never done this before?" Sebastian asks, bewildered. All I could do was shake my head no.  Then he snickered, "this is going to be fun..." He whispered, thinking I couldn't hear him. I'm just his play thing. Great. *sarcasm*
He pushed the rest of his length into me harshly and I screamed. He pulled out almost all the way, just his tip was in, and there was a pleasure when he wasn't there, but that vanished as he plunged deeply into me, and I screamed again. He was going back and forth relentlessly, hard and fast, and it wasn't turning to any kind of pleasure. Just pain. He rocked back and forth, slamming into me. Never breaking. I kept screaming as he kept screwing me. He flipped me over, so now I was on my stomach. He pulled out all the way, and there was a scary relief. He was big to say the least. He positioned himself again, and he pushed into me, and this new position was even more painful. I screamed as he slammed into me.  He kept going, faster.faster. "You like that red? You like me slamming my dick into your tight pussy?" He prodded. I whimpered," no. Please. Stop." I panted. "No." Was all he said, and slammed harder into me. I screamed. And the rest of the night was just like that.
Screwing & screaming.
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I jumped out of the bed, surprisingly not waking Sebastian. He had a sheet around his lower half, but I hated him now. I'm no ones play thing. I grabbed my clothes quickly, re dressed, and walked out the door. I had no idea where I was. And there was one person who would know where I was.
I picked up my phone and called,
"Hello?" Came Isabelle's groggy voice.
"Isabelle! I'm so happy to hear your voice-" I started
"Where did you go last night clary?! I was so worried! Let alone simon!"
"Isabelle- please. I n-need you to c-come pick me up. P-please." I had begun to cry. "Clary? Are you crying? Oh lord where are you? Tell me where you are Clare, I'm coming to get you. Now." She said. Relief flooded over me like a tidal wave. "I-I'm at Sebastian Verlac's house. P-please I need to g-get away from h-here." I stuttered though the tears. The line went dead.
5 minutes later
Isabelle's car pulled up, and she bounded from her car, she ran over to me, and I jumped into her arms, crying. "Lord clary, what did he do?" She asks "he-he took m-my v-vir..." I couldn't say it. But Isabelle got the message. "I'm so sorry Clare. Come on, let's get you back to my house okay?" I nodded my head, and got Into the car.
"Did you use protection?" Isabelle asked. "No. B-but he never- he never c-came I'm fine, that's fine." "Your not fine clary, your the farthest thing from it! I know how he does that. It's hard, and painful. You don't get pleasure from it clary, you never do with him. I'm sorry that he was your first clary. That's not how it should have been for you. " Isabelle soothed. That's when I realized, she's been where I am. "Isabelle? My his had happened to you hasn't it?" I asked carefully, she sighed and pulled over. "Yes. It-it was a while ago. Painful as hell. It's not a thing you forget." She said." But who came to get you? Who rescued you?" I prodded." Jace. Jace came for me, I called him knowing he'd do anything to get here, even if it meant walking through fire. And he ran here. He freaking ran 7 miles to get here. And it took him 5 minutes... That's Jace. He'll do anything for the people he loves, clary. And it may not seem like it, but he would. He didn't even let me walk home, he carried me the entire way. I was a hot mess. He was there for me the entire time. I asked him not to tell Alec, or anyone. This was 3 years ago. He's never said anything. Ever. And I plan on doing what Jace did for me, to you. If that's what you want." She said. "Please. I need you. Don't tell anyone. Please." I cried again. She hugged me again. "Of course Clary. Of course." She continued to drive then, in silence. We got back to her house, and Jace was standing on the front porch, pacing. Alec was sitting in a chair, asleep, with his head thrown back, snoring. I almost wanted to laugh. Jace's head snapped up,and he went to Isabelle," where were you?" He Asked. You could tell he doesn't talk often. "I went to pick up clary. She didn't want to be where she was." She said. Jace nodded once, then walked back inside. I followed after him, with Isabelle.