I see her. I see her and I know her. She isn't just the girl in 5 group band. She isn't the girl who is always on her phone. She isn't because I know her. She isn't the girl who dated no lip what ever his name is. People portray in a different way as the 'intimidating one'
I know her because I grew up with her. I know her because I fell in love with her. I know her footsteps in a quiet house. I know how she likes her drinks strong. I'm here waiting for each day on sidelines because I know that the one who is with her can't possibly make her happy. Before all the fame and people screaming her name she was mine. And I know she feels the same about me.
I was sitting in the kitchen island doing some college homework and drinking coffee at the same time. The girls were getting ready to a Latin award show. "Y/n?" I heard a husky voice call my name. "How do I look?" I turn around and I see her on top of the stairs wearing a white out fit that ended 2inches above her mid thigh.
I felt my jaw hang open trying to find the right words to say. I scanned at her again, "Let me just start of saying(I can't even find the right word to say). աօա." I got up from my seat walking to the bottom of the stairs. I reached out my hand for her to grab once she took my hand I put our hands above her head and slowly spinning her like a dancer. I watched her spin looking at the way she looked. Every light in the room hitting her skin so perfectly. Making my heart pound. "You look very exquisite."
"Dance with me," she says leading us in the middle of the room.
"Laur you know I can't-"
She put both hands around my shoulder, "You can't or you won't?" I didn't do anything else but putting my hands on her hips.
She was right because she was in a relationship. She was in a relationship with her job. Management telling her to go to premiers and award ceremonies with a member of a famous boy band for promotions. Even dates. Going on tours pleasing her fans like parents forcing there daughters to go on dates with random boys. "I remember when we could do this in public."
I was the one for her and she was the one for me and we both knew.
"Louser let's girl." The Polynesian girl said barging in. "Big Rob is waiting for us," She said clueless to what she walked in on.
"Will you be okay by yourself tonight?" She said looking at me with her captivating eyes.
"It's not like I can go with you." She stared me with a hurt expression. Knowing she wanted show me out to the world. "I'm kidding," I said lieing. "I'll be fine. Don't worry about me. Don't even bother checking up on me."
"Be safe okay. Text me each place you stop at," she tiptoed kissing my cheek.
"Yeah," I said.
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I went back to the island looking through my notes. We had a writing for creative writing. I stopped flipping through my notebool till I found the page I wanted. I went to the studio grabbing my notebook. I went into the booth trying to figure out the rhythm of the song. If I cant even tell her why maybe I can just sing it. When I was done I ran to my room packing my clothes knowing I was going to be gone for more than a week. I had to. I didn't want her to worry.
I threw my bags in the back seat of the car. I transfered the song to my USB stick and writing a note.
I got in my car driving out the city.
Lauren's POV
"That was so fun," Ally said. We were going inside the house.
We all went to the kitchen looking for Y/n but she wasn't there. Her laptop was gone.
"Where is she its almost 1?" Ally said picking up the phone.
"Guys her car isn't in the garage?" Normani said .
"I'm calling her," Ally said. "She won't pick up her phone."
"I'm going to beat that girls ass," Dinah said.
"Lauren? This is for you."
Your probably wondering where I am but don't worry I'm safe. Do me a favor and go to the studio. I never was good at explaining how I feel. So maybe this will help.
"What is it Laur?" Ally said. Ally's phone rang. "Y/n?"
"Hey guys don't worry about me? I'm going to be at a survival boot camp for a few weeks. Uh yeah. I'll call you when I get home."
"Survival camp?"
"Okay we'll talk about this tomorrow morning every one go sleep."
I went to the studio and I pressed a play button.
I couldn't help but cry at the end of the song. "Hey green eyes uh. I didn't know what I was doing when I was writing this song, but that I want to tell you what you meant to me. And that I know if I did tell you face to face I would start to the think that there is hope. Hope that there would be an automatic you and I. I know that wont happen until you are ready and I am willing to wait. I'll be back soon. You can yell at me, hit me, cuddle with me anything as my punishment. I just have to do the this for me. I love you Ren. Please, please take care of yourself. I'll be back in a few weeks."
I screwed up. All the memories started rushing back. I stayed in the studio sitting on the couch crying. I almost lost my best friend. It was 2 in the morning and I decided to go to bed. When I opened the door I saw Dinah and Ally leaning up against the wall.
The poly girl quickly pulled me into her arms. I began to sob in her arms again. "I fucked up guys."
A/n guys please vote if you want a part 2.
