Invisible

CHAPTER 2

CHAPTER 2

***Harry's POV***

I was tired, not just tonight. No! Every night. Not because i didn't get any sleep. I did. It was just tired of every thing that happend. Everything that happened was just the same. It was just like everything was going in circles. The last two years were quite unimaginable to believe, yet it was as if everything stopped. As if the same thing happened all the time, but at the same time it felt as if nothing happened. We did a concert, did a tour, did interview, signed stuff, got followed by girls and after that we did other stuff. And that was all we did. Yes the things we did was a lot of peoples dream, i thought it was mine too. But now i don't know. Was this what i wanted? Well i couldn't change tha fact that i'm famous.. 

I wanted to be a singer, but being so famous wasn't what i asked for. It was hard, and couldn't get all i wanted. My old friends didn't like that i became famous, so my only friends are the fake ones, and the boys. Well and my family. And the friends that were my true friends, i liked them but I hadn't time to see them. All the things i didn't appreciated before, those things, i miss them now. 

I was frustrated, I didn't understand my own feelings. If I did not understand my own feelings, I should not expect others to understand it.

I had always wanted to be famous and rich. But now i knew i didn't matter if you are famous or not. I would say life is much more complicated when your'e famous. When you're famous there is no way out. You can't just escape. When you are famous, you can not allow yourself to make mistakes. But clearly fame isn't everything. My life is a kind of fake, it is not real. 

Wow Harry that was deep?! I laughed a little from the way i acted. I acted like a dramaqueen. But it was a fake laugh. Why couldn't it just be easy. I didn't know what was wrong, yet i knewn. 

When i woke up in the morning i was in a great mood, so this mood thing will probably go away tomorrow. 

I was sitting alone on a chair in the corner, i was backstage. The walls were white but to me it seemed like the walls was grey. Today everything was grey. I didn't wanted to talk to anybody. I was pissed and i didn't know why. Although I was a guy I still had feelings, but this time I just couldn't understand them.

Niall was walking over to me. 

"Are you okay?" Niall asked with a little concern. "I dont know, I really dont" I just anwsered and looking down in the floor. "Whats wrong?" He asked with a little more concern. "I dont know Niall" I said "I really don't." He looked at me. "You know you can always tell me, I wont tell anyone." I looked at him "I know, thanks Niall." Again I just looked down at the grey floor. There wasn't much light there. 

Niall spoke again "Then what is it? You know you can tell me." I was getting annoyed. I didn't wanna talk about it. I didn't want to seem like a little girl with wierd feelings. What should tell him? Niall i don't understand my own feelings, I don't know whats wrong. I don't like being famous. And right now everything is going in circles. No i wouldn't say that, i would sound like such a girl. I didn't want to talk about it. 

Lately I'd rather be alone. And right right at the time, I especially didn't want people to feel sorry for me.

"NO NIALL I CAN'T TELL YOU, YOU DONT UNDERSTAND." I  yelled a little annoyed by him. I could sense that he was a little surprised at my reaction. Niall was a good boy, but he did not understand. Niall went over to the rest of the boys. I could her Louis say "what's wrong with him?" Niall just shook his head. The all looked my way and they were whispering, I could sense it was about me. 

"YOU DON'T HAVE TO TALK ABOUT ME!" I yelled again.

I never yelled. They all looked at me shocked. A girl from the crew came over and gave me waterbottle. i could tell she was scared. I just stared at her. I left the room to be alone, as i liked it. Maybe it was best when I was alone, in that way i didn't scare anyone. 

I was furious .. Who were I?

Right now, almost everything was confusing. Was this how girls felt when they said they did not know who they were or they were confused.  Was i acting like a little drama queen? Did i make a big deal from a little confusion?

So many questions ...

I walked into our dressing room. I sat on a black chair and looked out into the air. Maybe I should just sleep on my thoughts ... I could sense that there was some outside the door. Just now I was not good with people so I would just like to have the concert over. There was a slow knock on the door. Liam came in. 

"I know there's something wrong, just say it when you're ready. Listen Harry, we were quite nervous for you. You have behaved strange here in the past." I didn't look at him. 

Either people were not so good for me otherwise I was not so good with people.

He was still in the room I hadn't said anything to Liam since he came in the room. I Just wanted to be alone. Finally he left, he could sense i wanted to be alone. 

I was clearly not so good for people.

***Rose's POV***

I could tell Michelle was exited, she made me happy. I almost never let some people come close to me, but the ones that did was only the real ones, like Michelle. I was not so good to trust in people. I always thought the best in people, yet I thought that everyone would harm me, disappear from me or the like. People tended to be indifferent to me. But not with Michelle, we had each other's back. 

Michelle jumped in the seat of excitement. I grinned at her, she didn't care. she just looked at me with the biggest smile in the world. 

I got a text from my sister Kate who said "I borrowed one of your dresses, it suits me better. :P" I just anwsered with a "K". I often got these kind of text's. It wasn't a funny sister joke she said. She meant it. But I do not think she figured out that it was quite sore said so, I just ignored it.

"So where are we sitting?" Michelle asked my dad, she was still excited. Her golden brown eyes shining with excitement. This was my favorite part of the concert, to tell Michelle where we were sitting. "In the V.I.P. section" My dad smiled smiled waiting for her response. "What?!" "Where?!" "Are you sure?!" "You can't be serious." My dad laughed a little "Yeah I'm pretty sure."  "Whoa!!  Thank you for bringing me!" "now i nervous, maybe they can see me." She was so happy. It suited her with a smile on her lips. I Laughed a little."Oh! I promise they will notice you...

At least somebody liked when i did something friendly to them. My sister was very ungrateful, and perhaps not the brightest. Besides my mom only liked my sister and she didn't tried to hide it. But dad was fair, he was sweet. I was more my dads girl than my moms girl. 

I think my mom would like only to have one daugther. She once told me when i was 7 years old that i looked like my sister the difference was that  I was uglier... she could not see the wrong in what she had said. Of course i loved my mom, she just never think before she speak. And I was not particularly close to her. We weren't speending much time together. We were very different. 

We drove past the very beautiful nature which made ​​me relax. I liked the nature. I broke out laughing when I saw an old man who was driving in his car with the top down, big sunglasses on and loud music."That's you in 10 years Dad, wait and see."He laughed "and that's you in 10 years." he said and looked at an old lady who ran on roller skates. She had neon pink clothes on and loud music in the ears, where she sang with. (it didn't sound pretty.) 

We all laughed hard.