Invisible

CHAPTER 7

CHAPTER 7

***Rose's POV***

I was a kind of person who always thought everything through at least 12 times, and when something bothered me i was always thinking about it all 12 hours a day. Right now there where a lot on my mind.

'Have Harry Texted Michelle? What if he has? What am i gonna do about it?'

I don't know why i was so protective, maybe it was because nobody protected me? And maybe this 'Harry boy' isn't that bad at all. I thought about it again, no he is that bad. He's attitude was anoying.

I was going down in our white kitchen, it was so clean that it almost smelled like cleaners. I quietly made myself some egg. I was still embarrest over William seing one half of me naked. I felt so embarrest thinking about it. I could feel my cheeks burn, i told myself that it was because it was hot in the kitchen. I never blush and i was never going to, only cute girls do that. I actually thought it was rough just being a girl. Guys only wanted a little 'miss perfect', and to all the other girls who wasn't a little 'miss perfect', they wouldn't be noticed.

This was how i was thought about guys, so why ever have a boyfriend when you know they wanted someone better and could have someone better. That thought hurted me inside. My exboyfriend Rick said he loved me, but would always say things that i could do better. He always wanted to correct me. I really loved him, loving him was a big mistake. He went cheating on me, with my ex bestfriend Natascha. I could feel my heart burning and my head in pain. He never loved me, he could get someone better. The only thing i got from that relationship was a broken heart, it never heales was what Michelle said. One thing i know now 'dont trust anyone'. I learned it the hard way. I was never good enough for Rick. I never wanted to fall in love ever again. Love is a thing that dosn't work for me.

People keep telling me how it is all gonna be okay, and how i will find love. Why do they even care for me, nobody do. But i shouldn't complain, because i don't want them to act they care for. I'm tired of people telling me that they care for me, and then don't.

My egg was almost ready. I was always having deep thoughts, but never in the morning.

I hummed a little. I was looking forward to practice with my band. I was looking forward to escape a conplicated world, and just let the music take over my soul. I heard some steps close to me. I looked up only to find my sister Kate and William looking on me smiling.

"What are we eating" my sister asked. I was a little embarresed when i looked at William smirking.

"I-I ..... H-h-hav-v-vn't ....... M-made for you. I thought you were sleeping" i said stuttering a bit. William laughed a little.

"Sure you did" he said. My sister Kate ignored his comment. She seemed in a really happy mood. Sometimes she would hate me but now she was acting really sweet.

"We'll just take something else" she said. I was glad that she wasn't grumpy. Maybe it was because William was here. I felt really bad about my sister's boyfriend 'Mike' he felt lucky for dating such a Barbie. And she was cheating on him every weekend, i tried the same with Rick. The feeling of being loved was fake. Then i realized i had to talk about Mike to my sister. Kate and William started to toast some bread. I quickly ate my breakfest, i ran outside.

It was wonderfull being outside. When i was inside it felt like my thoughts were trapped in a house. I loved being outside, i felt so free. I wanted to walk to band to get some fresh air. I was going to be a little late but it didn't mattered, because the other boys proberbly also was late. We were 5 people in the band. Toby on the drums, Kevin on the bass, Phillip on guitar and Jonas on keyboard. Jonas was also singing some of the time. I was singing. I also liked being around those guys, nothing about them was complicated. Everything was so simple, and i liked it.