Invisible

CHAPTER 11

***Rose's POV***

'How many times is it even possible to, meet the same anoying person randomly in one day.'

Harry just stood there looking at me, he had done that in a long time now. I felt very uncomfortable. He knew that, but he just keept looking. His green eyes were analysing me, and i didn't like it.

''Rose'' someone called again.

''Yeah'' i said nervoursly. I looked up at Bob who smiled hopefully. I smiled back, but just because it would be rude not smiling back.

''So do you want to warm up for the boys'' Bob asked pointing at the smiling boys. Almost all of them smiled, almost.

There was a big presure on me, and i couldn't do it. But it was a very good chance for me. I should feel lucky and accept the offer right away it's just not that simple. I guess I'm not sure if i am good enough.

These guys are really nice, and sweet to me. Exept Harry but I don't know.

This big question is about my future, and it is a really big question. I felt like i was about to step on a landmine no matter what i chose. If i didn't do it i would regret it and if i did it i would be afraid of dissapointing people. I would be afraid just to leave everything here and just take the chance. There was way too much to think about. Even for me. This big descion, was too big for me.

''I want to think about it'' i said and the boys looked at me with a confused face.

It wasn't easy for me telling them this. I sounded so selfish, and i dont even know why they would want me. They could have almost everybody else. I didn't like all the attention i got from the boys. They were always looking at me.

I could feel my hands get warm. This was way too hard.

"Why?" the blonde guy asked confused.

I guess none of the boys saw it coming. almost every girl wouldn't even think about it. But I'm not your 'everyday girl', and I will never be.

I didn't know how to anwser that.

"It's kinda hard to explain" I told him. I found the situation very awkward, and embarresing.

Couldn't they just take another girl to be a heater?

"We got time" Bob explained. I guess I forgot he was in the room too. I only felt Harry looking very wierdly at me.

I decided om telling them.

"I just don't know if I'm good enough. Maybe you didn't actually hear me. If i take the job, i have already choosen the way I want to live. And there are so many people at your concerts, what if I dissapoint them? And I don't know if i wanna leave everything behind here." I told them, and hopes that they would understand.

I sounded like a little girl with many emotions, but maybe I was. I was a little embarrassed by telling it, cause it sounded like there was so much kaos in my head. I just liked the way things were.

The light in the room was getting sharper and i felt traped in the room.

"Sometimes you gotta take a chance, to get a bigger chance you know" A guy with brown messy hair told me.

They didn't get me, even though I just gave them a big speach.

"Look I'm not what your fans want, so I have to be really talented for them to like me. And if I mess it up, I have nothing. And I'm not some hot guy who just can be loved by that." I said. In first just thought I insulted them, but then i realized what I said.

The guy who told me to take a chance laughed, then realisation hit them all. Everybody in the room began to laugh. My cheeks began to heat up. This was embarresing.

I looked down, cause they were still laughing, even my dad!

"I-I-I didn't mean it like that" i gained saying. And that made them laugh even harder.

"Then how did you mean it dollface" that guy asked with a smile on his lips.

My knees were shaking. I never meant that they were handsome, it's just if they fail people will still love them and say to them, that they're handsome.

"I just mean that if you fail, you don't have to worry" I said strongly.

They chuckled lightly.

"Because we're Hot?" The same guy asked again.

This was too much. I had never told a guy that they were handsome, so why should I? this was getting very personal, and I just wanted to get out and think.

My feet began to walk backwards. And i stoppes when I could feel dad's breath and relax again.

"I-I-I didn't mean it like that" I tried to explain. They made me look weak, and I also felt that way. I had nothing more to say. There was no more words in my mouth.

I started feeling uncomfortable, and awkward. I guess I just wasn't good to act normal, or maybe it was the attention? I was always living in my sisters shadow.

Maybe I just had to get used to it? Maybe.

"Guys don't" Niall said with a smile on hus face, a warm one. He seemed very easy to get along with. But how could I know.

I smiled a little at him as a thanks.

The room wasn't having any more heavy air. I didn't feel a need to storm out, at the moment. which is very good for me. I wasn't comftable, but I wasn't uncomftable.

It's wierd how a little thing a person can say, can change a lot.

I made my goodbyes, and was about to walk out when Bob grabbes my arm, and said;

"How about you and the boys have some alone time tomorrow, you'll get to know each other, and then we'll see if you can get along" he said warmly.

I looked at Harry right away, and surpringly he smiled a little at me. Was he trying to trick me? Cause that would be embarresing, even though i quickly dropped that thought.

I made my way to the door, and said to Bob "okay, but will you come with me?"

I really was hoping he would cause that would make it a lot easier. I guess I also could bring my dad then. He seems to like mr. Bob.

"I wouldn't miss a day with that star" he said and pointet at me. I felt relived. Maybe he found out that I'm not that good with strangers.

I smiled as a 'thank you'. I turned to walk out the door, when Harry smiled and said "don't make a deal out of nothing. I'll see you tomorrow" he sounded happy? wierd.

All eyes were on us, so I just wanted to get out. I draged my feet to the door. I felt like i had a big weight ob my shouders. Maybe I had to decide my future now. I looked back through the door and saw people smiling at me. At least I felt more welcome than at home.

I got a text as soon as i sat in the car.

*consider it, see you tomorrow.

- Niall xx*

I will, trust me.