victoria secret ✦ ashton irwin

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I stood on Ashton's balcony as I held a cup of hot coffee in my hand as I looked over the city.

Ashton was still sleeping since last night when Colton's friends eventually arrived he got so drunk I had to help him home because he could even stand on his own two feet.

The sun had finally decided to come out so I sat down on an outside chair and grabbed the book next to me - which was safe haven by the one and only Nicholas sparks.

"How are you up so early?" I hear a tired voice say from inside interrupting me on the first two words of the book.

"Well unlike you I controlled my alcohol intake" I say which causes him to laugh as u hear shuffling so on from his bedroom which I can't see due to the white curtains in the way.

"I wasn't even that drunk" he defends himself as he comes out onto the balcony and takes the other seat as he spread himself out squinting as the sun shone down at him.

"I can call Holland if you want and she will reassure you just how drunk you were" I say as I try focusing on my book which was hard since I felt Ashton's eyes on me the whole time.

"What?" I question chuckling as I look up at him.

"I uh need to tell you something" he says his voice going serious making me furrow my eyebrows, never have I heard him use this voice before.

Well mainly because he has never been serious around me.

"Shoot" I say giving him a nod as I put my book on my lap knowing that I won't be reading any more of it today and I hadn't even got passed the first sentence.

"Well when you left Victoria Secret" Ashton starts mentioning the show I never wanted to here again in my life "they gave me a break so I could deal with everything"

"And I know you won't be happy but my break is over, and I have to go back on set to continue filming" he says as he looks intently at me trying to figure out my emotions.

I didn't know what to say back, I hated that show, I hated the directors the only good thing that came out of that show was Ashton and the start of my modelling career.

I might sound ungrateful, this show did help me get known, but the way it happened made me question every day wether or not I it was the right idea to ever sign up for that show.

The lies, the drama, the significant hate for Holly, that's all the show ever offered me.

"Why didn't you tell me before?" I ask having no idea what else to say.

I never really thought of why Ashton wasn't on the show anymore, neither did I really want to.

But for some reason I just thought he was done with that show, I thought he was no longer a judge and he was finally willing to start a life with me, or at least try and overcome the hurdles.

"Because I knew you would hate it" he says looking me right in the eye as my grip on the mug tightens.

"When do you have to go back?" I question not even wanting to know the answer but know that I have to.

"This afternoon" he says softly making me furrow my eyebrows, why the hell didn't he tell me before.

"What? Are you telling me that the only time I got to aeon with you, you were drunk?" I say loudly aggressively running a hand through my hair.

"Well I didn't know that was going to happen, I thought it was going to be a fun last night of us being together" he says looking at the ground as I roll my eyes as I look out at the view.

I was probably over dramatising this all but god knows how long it will be before we see each other again and I wasn't prepared to let Ashton go yet and know that I won't see him every day.

"How long are you going for?" I question as I try and get over the fact that in a couple of hours Ashton will have to leave.

"There's still a lot left of the show, so they said around three months" he says and I gasp.

I knew it was going to be a while, but I pictured more weeks, not months.

"Are you kidding me? And your only telling me all this now" I say loudly wanting Ashton to know that I was angry at him over this.

Three months was a long time to not see each other and I don't know if in ready to let him go for that long.

"I just didn't want you to know that that was our last night, it was really nice and I didn't want to ruin it for you" he says sitting up in his chair.

"Well it's ruined now I know" I say closing my book as I finish off my coffee.

"Ariana please don't be mad, when you think about it, it's not really that long" Ashton says making me laugh sarcastically.

"Seriously? Not that long, Ashton I have trouble not seeing you for two days how the hell do you expect me to not see you for three months and be okay with that?" I question loudly throwing my hands in the air.

"And I'll miss you too but it's just something that I have to do" he says. Surprisingly I was the only one raising their voice as Ashton tried to calm me down.

His first mistake was to tell me this in the morning, I was so not a morning person and I was probably making everything more dramatic than it needs to be without even knowing.

So it would have just been better if he had told me last night.

At least I would have had some time to deal with it.

"Why though? You have been fine without the show for weeks never once mentioning that you wanted to go back so why can't you just stay?" I question.

I knew I was sounding selfish, trying to get him to stay no matter what it takes.

But long distance relationships really aren't my thing.

"I know you don't like this idea but I signed onto that show I've gotta do it and I do wanna go back" he says like he completely forget what happened their.

All the manipulating and his just making it out to seem like your average show when really it's not.

They plan everything out, to bring you down make their show more popular everything they can just to gain more views.

"Don't you hate the directors after what they did? Because I sure as hell do" I say wanting him to know that I was totally against this.

Knowing that he would once again be working with the people that made my experience miserable horrified me.

"I do, believe me and you have every right to hate them but I have to go back" he says as he looks like he was getting more angry every time I tried to fight back.

"No you don't and I don't want you to, there are so many things I hate about this, which is why I know your going to hate me for this, but I have to do it" I say as he furrows his eyebrows obviously not following along with what I was saying.

"It's either me or the show, if you get on that plane to go their I will no longer be here waiting for you"

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LAST CHAPTER OF VICTORIA SECRET DONE, I decided that there wasn't really anything else to write about so I decided that this would be the last chapter, but don't worry there still will be an epilogue

so sad this book is slowly coming to an end but I want to make the epilogue really long just to finish the book off and include all the information

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