A Pile of Ashes

Chapter 5

                 

"Want do you want to drink?" I asked Anna, smirking.

"Any cocktail will do," she replied giggling.

I knew it was my last night. I knew I had nothing to lose here. I went on that date with Anna. I went to the nightclub. It was only chance. It was fate.

I thought I'd enjoy my last night. That it would end with a victory. I thought that a kiss would result in a love confession. That I'd chosen the right one.

I couldn't have been more wrong.

It was when I leaned in and kissed Anna, that I realised what I felt for her held no emotional connection. I realised that I'd been working my way up with the wrong person all along. I realised that the one person I truly did love was Bellarose.

But fate would not have it. She had to be there, sitting a few seats away, watching as Anna and I snogged our lives away. Quite literal in my case. I only noticed her presence when she hastily stood up from her stool to leave, knocking it down in the process. I'd let go of Anna, and chased after Bella.

I ran after her, outside in the rain. I chased her until I finally caught up and grabbed her by her shoulder and turned her around. She looked at me with tears in her eyes and I knew I had to tell her the truth right then.

So, I told her.

It didn't end as happily as I imagined it to.

"So you're a spawn of Hell?" she'd laughed in my face humourlessly. "No wonder you don't know anything about love. It was never meant for you. I mean, you're literally trying to comfort me by telling me that not only did you use that girl, you used me too." She'd whispered the last part.

I'd felt myself tearing apart. "No," I'd whispered, "It's not like that."

She'd smiled up at me humourlessly. "That day I ran to you crying, it was because my boyfriend dumped me for spending too much time with you. He thought there was something going on between us. I didn't even contradict him. I let myself believe we could happen. And after all that. To see that I was just being used." I'd watched the tear trickle down her cheek.

"It's really not like that. I know what I feel for you. It's real. I feel it in here." I'd pointed to my heart. "I've never felt this emotional tug, towards anyone. This need to protect, care and provide for your every wants and needs. Please Bellarose, I beg of you. I love you. Tell me you love me too." My voice had cracked at the last part. I pulled her close and inched my face towards hers until our lips met. I wanted to know how much I meant to her. I wanted her to know how much she meant to me.

But that was, obviously, not to happen.

She'd shoved me away harshly and she'd laughed again. Not the sweet sing-song type. "I want to believe you, but my mind refuses to cooperate with my heart." And it was with that, that she'd left. Leaving me in the cold, with fat raindrops falling down upon my back.

I took out my last little pomegranate seed and held it in my palm and stared at it. I saw a figure leaning against a lamppost watching me. "Goodbye, Bellarose." I called out over the clamour of the rain.

"Goodbye, Arius," she whispered.

I shrieked with laughter at that. Immortal my ass, I thought as my body disintegrated. The last thing I saw was her, screaming, utterly stupefied, with tears streaming down her face.  I smiled to myself inwardly before being swept up by the wind.

I was nothing more than a pile of ashes.

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This was my first story, so I don't expect it to be too great. I hope you enjoyed it. ^-^

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¬Marzi