adventures with lion

confessions

hey hi hello

all of this stuff is too long to write out on twitter so here we go!!

I find that I wear a hell of a lot more 'manly' clothes or 'gender neutral' clothes. i kinda despise wearing girl/woman clothes. I tend to have days where I feel super girly, then some days where i feel more like a guy (:
not sure wether or not to call me gender fluid, but I feel like I kinda fall into that genre. :) I haven't had any changes to any pronouns or whatever, hell this is the first time I'm saying I feel this way :)

I am totally unsure of my sexuality tbh. sometimes I see a guy and go 'holy shit he's adorable I wanna suck his face off' and that's were I feel like I'm straight at times? then again I see some chick walking sometimes and think 'holy shit I want to give her hugs and kisses and wrap my arms around her every night' and then I think I'm gay? *shrugs* I also tend to have like pansexual in me also? like how my ex and I met, I didn't see her face until after we began dating, so I was like attracted to her personality? idk, I also find I wouldn't like have sex (wow ok I know I'm like almost 15 I'm just stating) with just anyone, I'd want to have it with someone I trust and love and yeah. I'm so confusing.

sometimes I admire my face bc it's very boyish/girlish. like it has the right amount of both so sometimes when I'm in the girl/boy mood I can be happy with myself.

sometimes I like to think back to what I've all achieved the past two years and I break into a huge smile. like how i got over depression because of my friends, how I skyped my best friend from across the world, how I managed to keep myself devoted to one person for 5 months, how I've had my two sunshines tweet me ( :)) ) and like just ugh it's so cool

I have different sides of me? like sometimes I will be in the lazy stage and have my hair up, sweatpants on, and no glasses. somedays I will be in the fancy mode and have my hair teased and sprayed with hairspray and yeah. sometimes I wear a sports bra just to slim my chest down and feel better about myself. sometimes I wear the bra I got from my mum that makes my chest look bigger. sometimes I leave everything as it is and just lay around in bed reading phanfiction.

:)